I was there where you are many many times. I would always slip out of the grip of trouble at the last minute. Then I finally decided it was too much work and decided to get sober. It is possible. Get in to action. This is a fight and its life or death. Cmon!
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Hello emily071891,

No matter how bad things may seem right now, you can turn it around and have a great future. If what you have been doing in the past has not worked then you can try a new approach. You cannot undo the past and you have little control over the legal system so it is useless to worry about it – what will be will be.

In cases where alcoholics have been trying their best to remain sober but continue to relapse, it has been found that a spiritual approach can work where all else failed. This is one of the advantages of the Alcoholics Anonymous Twelve Step programme when compared to other methods and one that the typical AA bashers fail to appreciate.

In order to recover, you need a change in your way of thinking and to find a new way of tackling everyday problems. The starting point is a willingness to change and to look for help. Going to meetings is not enough, no matter how many meetings you attend. You need the experience of someone who has done it already, a good sponsor. One of the things that you can learn from the AA programme of recovery is how to forgive yourself – once you do that, you can start building a bright future.

I cannot help you with the GPS and SCRAM issue as up until today, I have never had that experience. I married my GPS monitor 36 years ago and she knows all and sees all.

I remember when I was in outpatient treatment, my counselor told us, "We can throw everything at you but the kitchen sink, but the rest is up to you!"

Just like you, I was trying to commit a slow suicide with the bottle because I was unwilling to use the tools I was taught. It wasn't until I hit my lowest of lows, that I became aware, I will either have to do the work or check out of the hotel of life. Those were my only two options. My wife was extremely upset with me and ready to divorce me, I had no job, and was going through bankruptcy. When I got discharged from detox, I wasn't sure I had a home to go back to. Luckily I did. I just threw my hands up in the air and told my Higher Power, "I can't do it anymore! You take control of my life because I fail every single time! When I let that little bit of light through the door, was when my life began to change! I quickly noticed that an unseen force was doing for me, what I could not do for myself. It was like someone was manipulating the pieces of the puzzle of my life and placing them exactly where they needed to go and at the right times.

I made a commitment to go to meetings, got a sponsor, and did the steps. This was 9 plus years ago and today I have a great life and I have never been happier. I hope you find a path to sobriety that works for you like I did. You are young, so your potential is limitless!

God Bless

Thank you so much for your insight. That really lifted my spirits. Sometimes it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, as I'm sure you're aware, but your comment really helped me today. I've always thought "I got this", but that never worked out for me, so now I'm trying something different. I was normally against AA, but now I've opened my mind up to the possibility of AA really helping me. Thank you again for your support.

My DUI conviction was the best thing that happened to me. I even wrote a thank you letter to the two Texas State Troopers who arrested me and threw my drunk ass in jail.

Went to AA, worked the steps and have been sober for 13 years now.