Lots of people are here. WHats up?

Stay in that bed and say the serenity prayer until the feeling goes away or you fall asleep.

What exactly is triggering you if you don't mind saying.
You don't have to go through this alone.

God Bless

Hello Moondreamer1988,

Hopefully things are looking better today and that you are still on board.

The pink cloud is not real or lasting so it is natural that you have come back to earth. However, what your experience of the past few weeks has done is to give you a short glimpse of what is possible. Nothing of value comes easy or without work so it is only by working on the issues that you will reach the promised land. I remember when I started to learn how to play a musical instrument and the whole thing looked impossible and waste of time and effort but before long I could play a few simple tunes.

Keep doing what you have been doing but be prepared for some setbacks along the way as that is a natural part of life.

It’s a normal thing that once life starts lifting, I want to check out. My coping skills were just not there. I found that by going to my daily 430 meeting I learned the way to deal with all that life throws at me.

I hope you are doing ok. Get busy getting sober. I find if I get bored or on my pity pot ( poor me , pour me ) I am in trouble. Also know that these triggers come and they do pass. Cmon!

1is2many

The pink cloud is nice, keeps us pumped during the early days and that's a good thing! Also gives us enough time to build a support network to get us through the tougher times ahead. It took me a couple relapses to figure this out. I recall you started going to AA meetings and kindly suggest you get to one today. Share what you're going through, let others assure you that it will get better and give their support. PJ54 is right, it will take great effort for you to whip this thing, but I believe we all have that potential. We just have to want it hard enough and work a plan towards recovery. Wishing you the best today!

Hey guys; yeah I made it through the night luckily. It was really hard. I was so upset. Luckily tonight I have a meeting so I'm happy about that. I've just been feeling so overwhelmed. It's hard because I realize that certain people are not going to what to be around me because I don't drink anymore. It makes me feel really bad. I take rejection horribly; it is one of my triggers. Sighs; it's just a bad day.

Everything is impermanent, including happiness. Life has it ups and downs. We avoided it with alcohol. It's a slow process facing reality. I know from my experience, in my early sober days, I wondered how normal people got through the day days, when there were problems. It was extremely difficult for me in the beginning. Each time I faced a problem, it became easier. Eventual I got to the point, where problems are not overwhelming. I don't escape them, I face them and act. Today I am no longer overwhelmed with fear.
I enjoy my happy days, but I don't grasp onto them, because I know that they are impermanent. I siply enjoy the moment.v The same goes for my problem days. They too are impermanent.

It's a very scary feeling because I become self destructive when I am rejected or have something horrible done to me. All I want to do is drink and have sex with someone. At this point it doesn't even matter who. I just want to get rid of this pain. I'm skipping my meeting today because I'm too tempted to go buy beer. I'm so upset right now.

Hello Moondreamer1988,

Please take a step back and look at the bigger picture. If you can get past this and continue what you were doing, you will come to a time and place where you will love yourself and rejection won’t matter so much.

If you continue on your path and go through the steps, you will learn that those people who hurt us are perhaps spiritually sick. You would not be angry with a friend who was sick in hospital so try and look at this person who rejected you in the same way – a spiritually sick person who deserves your pity rather than anger.

Why not call the number of one of those AA friends.

I called one of my friends and he is on his way over: We are gonna relax and watch movies. I'm trying to deal with this in a positive way rather than self destruct. So far so good.

Are you ok?
1-2

ladies, we can take a hold of our pain and emotions with other means than using any drugs or alcohol or sex- all of these things are not a solution only an avoidance.... relapse doesn't have to happen. in meetings men are waiting to prowl on us and that isn't how we need to live or let others treat us- for it just makes us want to keep on drinking and avoiding.... AA or a Celebrate Recovery program near you is where you need to get- find a few strong women as a support system but above all else respect yourself....

I have a book from Hazelton called 24 hours. It is a devotional for people in recovery. One of the entries said to repeat to yourself over and over All is well until you believe it. That along with the serenity prayer has been so helpful to me. Things can be messed up and stressful, but underneath all that crap all is essentially well. If people don’t want you in their life because you stopped doing something that was destructive to you. Were they ever true friends? No one I have told has been anything but happy for me. I don’t judge people that drink and they can drink around me, but I choose to be the best version of myself and that is a sober one.

You guys are right. I’ve just been feeling so low lately and idk why. I’m going to talk to my therapist about everything. I also missed a week’s worth of meetings so that could have something to do with it. I’ve been really worried about relapsing recently but I realize that I don’t want to drink and I don’t have to. I have to learn how to deal with my cravings positively than automatically thinking I’m going to cave in. The last two days have been good. No complaints. But I do have to quit smoking bc I’m defibitely replacing alcohol with it which isn’t healthy. I just can’t wait to go back to school. When that happens my main concern will be my studies rather than thinking of alcohol.