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My pink cloud has burst..

Moondreamer1988
Moondreamer1988

I am extremely triggered tonight. I want so badly to get out of my bed and get a bottle right now. I'm so upset and I'm so afraid to reach out to someone. I just don't know what to do. I'm going to smoke to the point of passing out because it's the only way I'm going to not drink. 

PJ54
PJ54
Hello Moondreamer1988,

It is very good to see you back. I must say that I was a bit worried when you didn’t post for a few days, so well done for not drinking.
Moondreamer1988
Moondreamer1988
Thank you! Yeah, I need to take a step back and look at the bigger picture. I’m still learning how to live without drinking. I’ve been working with my therapist and doing whatever I need to stay sober. I had to learn the hard way that just because two people are recovering alcoholics that doesn’t mean they can be in each other’s lives. I miss the girl I met so much but it’s probably best that we aren’t friends. She’s a very cold person. But yes, I’m doing so much better. I’m learning that there will always be bad days, I just have to be prepared for them: not use that as an excuse to drink. Day 36!!! Couldn’t be happier!!
bambusue
bambusue
one day, at 6 months for me, things seem so impossible and so not worth it. I was sitting there, sulking, and I decided that I could wait till Christmas, and if I still felt that way at Christmas, I would drink.
meanwhile, I made myself brownies and ate nearly the whole pan. A lot, anyway. My outlook brightened, and by Christmas I was in the groove again. Just not giving in to today's urges helped me through.