Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I had 3 weeks of sobriety until last night. I had quit my job at a restaurant, because it was killing my body and my mental state was constantly cranky and frustrated. You know when you are working a job you hate because its all you think you are worthy of? I finally decided I was going to quit and just look for a job I actually wanted to do, regardless of how menial or "OMG...you work THERE?" it was to people. I found a supervising custodial/maintenance position at an indoor entertainment park. Great schedule and everyone is really nice to work with. And I can basically do what I want all day, as long as certain tasks are accomplished by end of shift. So, for the last 3 weeks I've been feeling absolutely awesome and coming home to my wife in a great mood, instead of needing to drink and decompress for a bit in silence. Then, on Saturday my grandfather died while I was at work and graciously my mother waited until Sunday to tell me so I wouldn't spaz out at work. And then on Monday my wifes dad had a stroke while driving and slammed into a tree. She left yesterday to go up and see him in the hospital. He's on life support and doesn't have much longer. So, the stress of all that and my wife not being home, I went out to a hole in the wall bar that has cheap liquor. I blacked out and woke up at the expensive bar. Thankfully I only bought one drink and left. Blacked out again and woke up this morning with 20 return texts from people I never talk to. I feel like a failure. Because I've tried to quit before and always leave myself some "well if this happens I can drink a few drinks...I'll be fine" kind of thing. This time I was really trying to start over, new job, new me, no drinking. Im just disappointed in myself and needed to let it out. Day 1. Again.
-
check out that smoke ring. It tasted really good. I smothered it with Maulls BBQ sauce which is Local to St. Louis and one of the best I ever had.....
-
I was recently separated from my wife of 33 years and it's complicated. Anyway I rented a room about 15 minutes away and I see my kids about once a week. I see the people who own the house I live in once in a while but other than that I stay in my room where I do my cooking, wash dishes in the shower, read, color, and sleep. I get out at least once a day. I grocery shop and I attend 2 meetings...
Something similar happened to me. I had been sober for a couple of years and was going to weekly AA meetings. I gradually cut back on my meetings to 1 per month and then 1 every two months until I stopped going permanently, thinking I didn't need them anymore but nothing could be further from the truth.
I had stopped doing the things that kept me sober and over a period of just a few months, my life gradually got worse. I went through a divorce, I lost my job, and my dad died in a freak accident at my house. To top it all off, I was doing a project in my shop and sliced off my thumb on my table saw. I think you can guess where I landed on the day I got home from surgery!
As I was drinking, I started having flashbacks of all the AA meetings I had attended over the years and the many people who had been through similar life challenges and some of them relapsed but they stopped because They realized they had just learned a valuable lesson about how dangerous this disease really is! Then I thought of my father and I asked myself, would he approve of what I had just done? I didn't think he would so I threw my second drink out the window of my car!
It's been 6 plus years since that last drink and my life has changed for the better. I forgave myself for the way I handle my emotional pain and I use my AA support network when needed. I have a job which I really like, and I have never been happier.
~~~God Bless~~~
Today I have made some changes , I decided that me and booze are not friends. It’s a bunch of coiled vipers in the bottle.
It took a bunch of work on life and understanding of alcoholism.
Go find an aa meeting , I didn’t know what I didn’t kniw
They tested me for alcoholism, but, as I sat there waiting for hallucinations and shakes to start, I simply said to myself NO MORE ALCOHOL!! Quit cold turkey (not a hard decision considering what pancreatitis does to you)!!!
Anytime I get the urge, all I think of was that sickness/pain and water is perfect. It's a hard, difficult transition and everyone is different!
Good Luck Everyone - however you can beat your problem!