We understand. I want you to know that I love you with all my heart and will choose to send love vibes to you all the way in Australia today in my sivansana. You can heal. Great choice on going to see a doctor first. I want you to detox and start feeling a natural high from life. You still have me. Huggles, CC.

Hello sweetchick,

I can relate to what you have posted but I think you may need to shift your focus.

What your parents, children, other relatives and the wider community, including those here on DS think is not the most relevant point right now. What really matters is your own thinking, your own motivation and your own willingness to do whatever it takes in order to recover.

Detox is a good and essential starting point but it is only the first step of a journey. I have found that many people, including myself have been willing to get sober but very often, it will be done tomorrow or next week. For alcoholics who have had enough of drinking, the day for getting sober is TODAY.

If you were desperate for alcohol and had none in the house, would the absence of your driving glasses keep you from getting what you wanted? If you are desperate for sobriety you will get to an AA meeting tonight. Call up a friend, a family member or the AA General Service Office and organise transport. When you get there, get involved, no matter how much or how little you do. Remember that recovery from alcoholism is not just about going to a heap of meetings and listening to peoples drinking stories; the journey to recovery will take a change in your thinking and your outlook on life and that can come through the Twelve Steps with the help of a good sponsor.

I totally understand where you are at and how difficult it is to motivate yourself to do even the simple things you have described. However, there comes a time when you have to tell yourself that enough is enough, gather together your resources and just make a start, a bit like the man I knew who walked barefoot over a mountain to get his next drink.

The opinions of other people is their business. Your priority is to put all of your effort into doing whatever it takes to get sober. You deserve happiness, peace of mind and sobriety and you can have these things but it will take work on your part. Learn to love yourself.

Thanks so much CC. It means a lot. Its nearly bedtime here and looking forward to gettting those love vibes. Hope you have a great day.

Hey PJ, You got me thinking. Maybe I could organise transport for a Wednesday AA with a friend I know. I only go to the bottle shop because it is a 3 minute drive and the shops are the same. AA is a 40 minute drive during the day and I got nearly run over by a semitrailer last time I tried it. And the nearest AA at night I nearly ran over a roadworks worker. I don't want to get done for an accident due to no glasses. Anyway thanks for the input I know detox is only the first step of the journey.

Well Ive got my valium and tomorrow is the big day when I start detoxing. Wish me luck I really need it.

Good luck SC x

I use .to procrastinate alot and say, I'll do it tomorrow but it took a long time for tomorrow to get here. Thank God I stopped procrastinating long enough to get started on my journey.

During that time, if I would have allowed one negative thought of drinking, to enter my mind, It would have sabotaged my recovery. so I filled my time with AA meetings and I studied as much as I could about sobriety so I could keep myself aware of the dangers and pitfalls.

Having my Higher Power take care of the things I couldn't handle was extremely helpful to me especially in the beginning! I almost died but I am here today by the Grace of God and the 12 steps of AA!

You can do it too, we all get second chances in life and I really believe that when one is ready to finally quit then he/she quits!

God Bless,

It's Wednesday. How's the move to get sober? Cmon!
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I lapsed three weeks ago, for three days, I'm now sober 3 weeks. Its a tough road sometimes family don't get how fierce alcoholism is, please don't be hard on yourself, your not a bad person, just keep trying, You will get there.I have to believe in myself even if my family is waiting for me to stuff up again, this is my battle and I'm doing this for me this time, because I deserve happiness as much as any body else.

Good news everyone. I'm on day 2 of sobriety. Not that day 2 is much too boast about but at least I have got off the merry-go-round. I spent day 1 catching up on my course at college which I have fallen way behind on. I'm still having a lot of stomach pains which is a bit scary when I read on how that could have ended up if I kept drinking. Thanks to all of you for your support. I'll try not to worry about what my family are thinking but will ring them in 2 months and say I've got 2 months up which will be my dad's birthday. I'm planning on AA next Thursday as soon as I get my glasses. I don't know about the HPower thing yet but will use it if I need it. I've only had to take 2 valium so far which is good as I don't want to swap one addiction for another.

Hey All,
Today is Day 5. I've managed to make it this far by putting sobriety first above everything. In saying that my boyfriend or friend with benefits got insulted and upset yesterday. I'm a different person when I don't drink, stronger and less pliable, more opionated or at least willing to share my point of view. I don't think he will last through the ups and downs of early sobriety. He doesn't understand how hard it is and the emotional side that comes out. I have to give up because of my stomach and high liver enzymes. But now I'm upset because he's upset and feel like drinking again. This Thursday I finally get my glasses and can drive to AA. Maybe it will help but today is Sunday and Thursday seems ages away. Just venting.

If it's any consolation......I'm sitting here chain smoking while I'm typing this....Not to mention the beer that was in my right hand an hour ago...

Vent away... My sponsor said people in our life are balanced like a mobile when something goes away or upsets that we all have to find our places again so we are balanced. My family was kind of in an uproar for awhile. We are finally all settling in again. Keep it up you are doing great

My liver enzymes were three times the normal level. Then My dad had a stroke and was to enter a rehab facility. Rehabilitation like get better physically not a drug rehab. Anyway. My brother and I toured about 4 to see what place looked good. They would always show us the transplant floor... They would say these are the lucky ones. But looking in those doors and in the eyes of the ppl gave me a wake up call like never before. I continued drinking for a week or two more but then I knew I had to get sober or I would be in that place.

That was right about four years ago. The enzymes are now back to normal. It is very much possible for you to find a way to plug the jug.

Cmon get on the wagon

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I have 'quit' drinking so many times, i'm surprised I have not died just from dextoxing so many times, until this time, it's been 3weeks tomorrow, I have been reading a book that costs me 4.25 via mail from 'passages' in Malibu, the treatment center. The book is free, only paid s & h. It's claims to 'cure' your 'addictions'. So far so good. I think anyone reading this should read it. I read it over and over, almost like a bible, without the religion. The moral of the book is very interesting.
When you have 'any addiction' what can you lose, right?
https://passagesmalibubook.com/

Peace,
Linda Leman
Linda.leman@ymail.com