I was addicted to alcohol it removed me from me what the problem was I could not manage life without it and could quit for several days or maybe a week and then will be back on the bottle it was not until I decided to change my habits and instead of going to drink every day I decided to go to a meeting My last drink was on June 9, 2012 it's A miracle but somehow I am able to lean on other people that are in recovery and together we help each other the other issue was I needed to learn some coping skills and by being willing to show up and listen I have heard how other people can do it

You don't have to drink today or tomorrow but the only way this is going to happen is if you do something different than you did yesterday. So are you willing to make that change?

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I had to be willing to change " the person I've become." I wasn't motivated to do so until I had lost nearly everything. My wife was still pissed at me while I was in detox because my drinking had pushed her buttons so much. I remember talking to her on the phone from detox and I just told her, I can't change the past but I can change the present and create a better future, which I did. I put the past behind me, dug a big hole and buried it!

Then I went through an outpatient treatment program followed by counseling followed by AA meetings. Had I not done everything I needed to do, I wouldn't be here writing this to you.

The choice is yours, you can stay on that one way train that's guaranteed to crash when it reaches the end of the line, or you can get help and live a meaningful sober life! What will it be, get off at this stop or stay on this ride which is guaranteed to get worse. I hope you choose the latter.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

God Bless

I felt the same way nearly 7 months ago. Trust me, you are not weak. I have always had a lot of drive and willpower and I was bewildered that I couldn't stop drinking on my own. Now I know that I am an alcoholic, and I can't will it way. It would be like someone with cancer trying to will the tumors away. I thought my world would crumble when I went to rehab, but things have only gotten much better. My advice to you is to not beat yourself up over not being able to quit on your own. I also advise you to seek help. I went to my doctor and she helped me get into detox. I'm not going to tell you what kind of help you should get, but just know you can't do it alone. I hope that you are able to find some peace and comfort because I can really relate to how you are currently feeling.

You say you hate yourself for becoming alcoholic but you can love yourself by becoming and staying sober. The only way you will succeed in that is finding and/or broadening your support network whether it be AA or another alternative programme.

Those relationships you fear you have damaged can be rebuilt but you have to like, love and respect yourself enough to rebuild yourself first. Once those people see your strength and determination, their trust and respect in you will grow.

You can change yourself and your perspective.

I have a friend who is 53 years sober. He has taught me to be grateful to be an alcoholic. Because he's been given a toolbox on how to deal with life's struggles. He'd never have this if he weren't an alcoholic.

It took me a while to see, but I am glad that I appoach everything with the comfort and knowledge of knowing I make an experienced and wiser decision based on what I've learned.