Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
It's been about 5 months since my last post. I hadn't even logged on. I've been battling so much but today I wanted to get on. I'm currently 144 days sober. I haven't been sober this long in almost 10 years and it is amazing to me that I have made it here. I was drinking vodka and/or wine..or whatever I could get my hands on really..every single day. I'd go to bed drunk and wake up either still drunk or hung over but I'd drink all over again to make it feel better. Only temporarily of course. I hid vodka all around the house and even drank it openly in a water bottle or in Gatorade so no one knew. I drove drunk several times. I liked and hid my drinking and I was becoming someone that I despised. I wanted to change so I came clean to my husband and my family for help. Although I promised to stop,time and time again I failed and relapsed. Until I woke up sicker than ever on July 29th and decided I had had enough. I had to quit for myself and for my family before they gave up on me and I lost them. I knew if I lost them I would probably kill myself. I called up my uncle,who is a recovering alcoholic and went to my first meeting with him on July 30th. I've been sober ever since. Alcohol was my life. My goal everyday was just to get drunk enough to forget everything going on inside my head. And now I never plan to have a drop again,even though the urge is still there and probably always will be. I finally learned that I am bigger and stronger than alcohol. I'm in control of my life,not alcohol. So I quit giving into it to prove that to myself. Anyone out there still trying to get sober,you can do it too. It is possible. Things aren't perfect,nor will they ever be. I still have extreme depression and health issues and things like that. But I can tell you this. All of it is a lot more manageable without drinking. I'll never look back on my decision to quit. It's the best thing I have ever done for myself. I just wanted to say all that and that I hope everyone out there stays strong,sober,and healthy. God bless you all.
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check out that smoke ring. It tasted really good. I smothered it with Maulls BBQ sauce which is Local to St. Louis and one of the best I ever had.....
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I was recently separated from my wife of 33 years and it's complicated. Anyway I rented a room about 15 minutes away and I see my kids about once a week. I see the people who own the house I live in once in a while but other than that I stay in my room where I do my cooking, wash dishes in the shower, read, color, and sleep. I get out at least once a day. I grocery shop and I attend 2 meetings...
I hope you talk to your doctor about your depression and other health issues. I am sure there are ways to control them without using alcohol as a crutch.
God Bless
I remember when I was a newcomer, I heard a woman say that she'd always be fighting them. I remember thinking "if I had to fight the compulsion every day, I'd rather die drunk". After 25 years, I still remember it like it was yesterday. Thankfully, that is not the case. I don't fight alcohol today. The craving has been removed. Read the 10th Step in the Big Book. It tells us what our future holds after working the Steps with a sponsor.
I'm so happy for you. What a gift for you and yours! Congrats!
My watershed moment was when I gave up the fighting and just went along with the deal. I was by nature a fighter, a scrapper, and I actually enjoyed the challenge. But it was exausting. I was tired of fighting and just accepted I am an alcoholic. The relief was so great.
I hope you find peace.
1is2many
Your share really hit home. Thank you for sharing during the holiday season because it can be rough.