I never had a problem with drinking, then in 2002 I had a gastric bypass, probably a year after the surgery I started having a glass of wine now and then, then in 2006 I got somewhat out of control, having times when I was drinking too much.  I married in 2007 and was drinking probably 2 glasses of wine a day, soon after the marrige I found out my husband was addicted to opiates, was lying and stealing from me.  This went on for six years as I declined right along side him, to the point where I finally divorced him in 2013.  However, since that date, it's been a rocky road, I'm not over him and we have tried to get back together several times.  He recovered and I've gotten worse, I've always had to take care of him and he's not been able to take care of me, bad credit, bad money management and etc.  I just usually feel used and leave.  In the last three years I had a serious injury due to my drinking, this injury left permanent nerve damage in my arm and hand.  Still I have not learned, this week I fell asleep in a chair and fell out and injuried the same arm and then vomited and was sick the entire next day, but I stlll drank that evening.  My drinking is out if control and I can't tell my boss - I'm an executive and it would be frowned upon if they knew I had a drinking problem.  I'm trying to make a plan to stop drinking - I drank 5 nights out of the last 10 nights; I want to stop entirely ... I'm going to try prayer and look for support on line, I've also got a good book written with Jack Canfield called "30 days to Sobriety" and it has a website to work through as well.  Wish me luck and send prayers please.