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tinydancer02
tinydancer02

I've been having relapse after relapse. Spent days sick and unable to do anything. I have said for so long I'm done drinking and won't do it again. But I would eventually anyway. But I finally feel like I'm ready to get past this. I finally don't want to ever mess up again. I got the desire chip last night at AA. It was my second meeting. I held it the whole way home. I have finally made a real step towards recovery and I'm so proud of myself for that. It's a good change to be proud of myself and not disappointed. It's not easy but I know I can get there.

Comhar
Comhar
I'm very happy for you!!! :)
judgefitness
judgefitness
Well done tinydancer!! Small steps and one day at a time - when you wake each morning, just make a commitment not to drink that day and the days will soon turn into weeks and then into months. You can do this. xx
Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine
It's also called the Honesty Chip or the 24 Hour chip. It doesn't matter what it's called, what matters is, it's the first day of the rest of your life. Somebody told me to tell you that because it signifies a new life, a laying to rest of the old one, the one that did not work. I am so excited and happy for you so keep on keeping on!

God Bless
1is2many
1is2many
Get busy living
Cmon!
1is2many
Cora_Belle
Cora_Belle
I remember the relapse after relapse after relapse thing. So much so that I referred to myself as "the Relapse Queen." But each relapse only seemed to reinforce my behavior of relapsing. I mean, it was almost as if I was giving myself permission to relapse, cuz, you know, that's what I did.

When I made this connection between my attitude (relapsing is to be expected, understandable and "okay") and my behavior (to continue relapsing), I made the conscience determination that "I no longer relapse". I put that behavior behind me. I went from "it's okay to relapse" to "I don't relapse. Period. No matter what."

That decision and a willingness to work the 12 steps has helped me achieve my current sobriety of 13 years.

Good luck.
jeffneedshelp
jeffneedshelp
Now your talking.
bambusue
bambusue
My sponsor had so many relapses that she never did know what was her sobriety date. She quit noting it because she just figured she would relapse again. Finally, something took hold and she did get sober and stay that way till she died in her mid-80s.
So, it will happen. I am glad you are writing about this and glad you got the chip.
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