Alcoholism Support Group
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Hello,
I did something criminal a month ago that scared the life out of me. I have not drank alcohol since this event. After the incident, I was in a hotel room for two weeks, strongly considering suicide. I came very close to it several times.
My whole drinking life flashed before my eyes and I was so ashamed. I wanted to die because I felt I was worthless. Still do. My question is, how can I start forgive myself for 18 years of being a fraud? A liar. I knew I had a problem ten years ago, but never really accepted until this event that I can never drink in moderation. Never. I am terrified of alcohol at this point because of this event. The problem is, I am 43 years old, never really had any significant sober time under my belt, and now have done something that will effectively end my life.
I don't see a way out of this other than giving up. I didn't kill anyone or hurt a person or steal from anyone or anything like that, but if and when I am charged, my life will essentially be over.
I am ashamed for not accepting I was an alcoholic ten years ago and all that has happened because of not doing that.
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So mad at Xfinity! They're trying to charge me $115 per month for the same service I had been paying $50 the last four years. I took the equipment to UPS for shipping and cancelled my subscription today! Next door was a cookie shop called Crumbl. I had heard of it before but never went in until today. I don't need one more sugar fix, but maybe it will help with my sad) grieving heart....$15...
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check out that smoke ring. It tasted really good. I smothered it with Maulls BBQ sauce which is Local to St. Louis and one of the best I ever had.....
Maybe this is your time to surrender to alcohol and finally get off it for good! I encourage you to attend AA meetings when you get straightened around. You have a story that needs to be told. Many will identify and will be helped by your example! You could potentially help many!
Try to focus on the positives. Yes you made a mistake but you are making amends to the best of your ability.
Lastly, you really need to forgive yourself.> I have a prayer for that which always helps me:
"""Take this from me and look upon, judging it for me.
Let me not see it as a sign of sin and death, nor use it for destruction.
Teach me how NOT to make it an obstacle to Peace,
But Let YOU use it for me, to facilitate it's coming"""
God Bless
I have never heard of divine Providence. I will look it up. I d finitely feel God wanted this to happen to wake me up. And I am very awake to it.