If you need help please reach out to crisis centres by following this link

http://www.dailystrength.org/help/crisis-resources

With all the best intentions people on internet chat forums cannot help you. You can get face to face one to one real life assistance.

You need to meet with a doctor face to face and go from there. Not everybody benefits from online help. You are one of those people. Don't give up hope.

for 20 years I have had face 2 face interaction and it did nothing for me.

I've always found for me that decisions I either cannot or will not make are always forced back on me Sometimes with out my consent ! I think that is what is meant by waffling , wishy washy or God forbid a death wish without taking responsibility myself!

As far as online support ,its limits are self imposed by the same inaction.

The internet is like a gold mine for finding options to be used in our regular life and a place to at least gain a little clarity in forum replies and questions presented!

Alcoholism, addiction and mental illness connected to it whether it be connected to trauma at anytime in our lives or just plain ol overly indulging in to to much of a substance or behaviors, is over the top these days in those suffering with it!

I always loved being a martyr because like I said then I was let off the hook with accepting responsibility for myself and assumed a victim stance! I hope in your best interest whatever it is you need you can find it without dragging all of us fellow sufferers with you on a emotional level!
HuG!
Billy

Personally I have a idea how hard it is....I just had to take the help I was offered and continue to do the best I can with it!

Some of us seem's to have been given a hard hand to deal with I know in my case for almost 30 years I have had to continue to stay vigilant with my recovery and most importantly.... Not drink No matter what ! Effective change is a thing that is discretionary on a individual basis!

I needed as much help and info about myself as I could muster then slowly but surely I became noticeably more inept at handling the things I was confronted with out of my own need to see it!
Billy

Hi there, Please, please, think long and hard before you give up and do something you can't take back. You said you had 2 interventions and they didn't take. I don't blame you, those can be intimidating and any attempt that's forced on you likely won't work. By your name "keep it simple" it looks like you've been in AA that whole time? Maybe the message of powerlessness and surrender is exactly the OPPOSITE of what someone like yourself needs to surround themselves with. Have you tried anything else? There are people here that would like to help you but more information is needed. Feel free to friend me and reach out to me if you are so inclined. EVERYBODY HERE, REGARDLESS OF HOW THEY GOT SOBER, DO CARE OR THEY WOULDN'T BE HERE :-)

I do remember you KIS and sometimes think about you when you're not here. That's a reality and I'm sure it's the same for many others you've met in your life.

I've found there have been many dances I've danced over the years where I followed the same old steps, assuming I couldn't do anything else...turns out that's not so true. Just because the music is playing doesn't mean I have no control over my feet.

Hope you find what your looking for my friend

P

I am sorry you are in pain.

I don' t know what you are looking for or expect from others here. There is a limited amount of support online groups can offer, and I would encourage you to contact a crisis center.

Hi,
I'm new here. I'm also alcoholic and i feel down, sad, alone.... I did it to my self, I know, i't was my mistakes... But still, doesn't hurt less because of that.... I'm wondering how to go on in life...
Thank you all for listening

I'm sorry you feel at the end of your line. I do know how that feels.
I needed to feel that before I could recover.
You still have hope or you wouldnt have posted what you did. So take that sliver of hope and make a few phone calls NOW. No one can do it for you. Call a psychologist and make an appt to go immediately. Call a suicide hotline. Go to an AA meeting if you are alcholic or think you might be. Do these things and see what happens.
You know how your way works. Try someone elses.

well let me say that I cant goto any mental health office because I dropped out of 2 and they wont take me back. so as I have always said, people just piss all over others who fail and I am a failure. I will never go to aa because they are just a bunch of cruel people who are in a clique and couldn't care less about anyone new... yea ill call a hotline as I am getting ready to finish the job I started...

just remember that you are are not alone, struggling, oh yes mam!!

ok so I am not alone, does that mean I should partner up with someone and we can go down together?

I'm saying a prayer for you. Out of curiosity, do you have a dog or cat? Let me know,,,thanks. I've cried in my cat's fur numerous times. It is stupid, but he is always there unconditionally for me.

Especially when I feel humans suck...