so i have 7yrs sober see but i been messing up with pain killers. see i let myself think im smarter than a drug and i can control how many pills i shove down my throat as opposed to how i cant control how much booze i shove down my throat. i always say im a alcoholic and a drug addict at meetings. anyone got a 24hr chip?

If you rid yourself of booze, you can of pills too!!!

yes I have an old 24hr chip...I too take pain killers...I do it for pain and I do not abuse them....but if your slipping into addictive behaviors then you need to change your sobriety date to when you stop the drug abuse....powerful as they can be drugs are not good to our bodies either....hugs bill

Just to introduce yourself as an alcoholic and addict doesn't make it ok to continue shoving the pills down your throat.

I'm from the school of thought that we recovering folks need to "let your conscience be your guide".

You're using medication to change the way you feel. Sobriety is about state of mind. With the pill abuse, do you consider yourself sober? Have you asked God for help?

Wouldn't hurt to check out NA. Best of luck to you steevo.

steevo? sorry, I meant drcopperhead.

as i said, i lost my content that i spent an hour writing. i was depressed and frustrated when i wrote this. i was trying to b being somewhat facetious(not sure thats the word i want). i was saying that i was saddened and digusted and ashamed with myself. in my other post i said i didnt think i could consider myself 7yrs clean and sober. i havent bothered with chips since my two yr. its one day at a time and my point was that after being sober almost seven yrs i messed up. which means that im not spiritually fit. as for God and myself? thats between God and myself. i dont know that there is a God but i do know im not Him! sorry if i was not clear

when i said i admited in meetings that i was also a drug addict i was implying that i knew a long time ago. thats the point. thats the disease. if im not spiritually fit i can relapse at anytime. and for your info i havent been to a meeting since i screwed up. i dont go in meetings and lie. i know people in meetings that have been sober many years and there idea of sobriety is way different than mine

when i first went to meetings i was disgusted with the way some of the men talked about women as if they were a peice of meat. i said i didnt come here to continue using people. i came to stop using. people included

pick a team. You can not play for the Raiders and the Bears! playing both sides of the fence has you caught in the barbwire. You have put yourself in a penalty phase. I would suggest you get an understanding of the disease of addiction.

understanding of addiction? your comment makes no sense to me. i would suggest u get an understanding of me before u get judgemental

Sounds like you gave up one addiction for another. Pain pills are worse than booze as far as being addictive. Flush them down the toliet and be done with them.

the pills have been gone for weeks. and lets do start ranking whats more addictive. after all arent we all EXPERTS here. im new here and trying to b honest.

i dont know if its just me but im sensing a lot of hostility, ya know, as opposed to compassion. i hear alot of " my advice to u" instead of "my experience has been". we have a group here in my town called "Holier than thou". seems fitting at this juncture.

It is always the issue when I do not want to hear the truth. I become defensive. I understand the pain self loathing And anger
Noonce is judging you except you.

" i need to get an understanding of addiction"?