Thank you Darrell

Give your self some Grace... Take from it, and keep fighting the good fight...

60 days was not a waste to your body-think of how refreshed it was to get those toxins out. Ya fell, ok, the real test is, can you get back on that horse and ride? YES. I was so bruised and beaten by the time I finally got sober, it does not matter though, just keep trying

When will you learn from your relapses that no matter how determined not to drink, no matter how many decisions you make not to drink, you are ALWAYS going to if you are an alcoholic. You are not in control of this thing, it is in control of you and can get you drinking in a heartbeat.
6 days, 60 days, 60 weeks, 60 months or 60 years away from alcohol doesn't make you immune from powerlessness.

It doesn't have to be like this - only you can make a decision to do what thousands of other alkies have done to get and stay sober permanently. That is the only thing that is up to you in this!

I don't like the idea of your partner making you buy his beer either. My husband used to get me to buy his beer and finally I just told him that I wouldn't go in a liquor store ever again . I've been sober a long time and I don't need that crap.

If relapse wasn't a part of the equation,, none of us would be here,, and then we would all easily be "RECOVERED"!!!

Dipso:

I echo the sentiments of so many who have already answered your post:

1. You drank. So what?! You never have to do it again if you don't want to.

2. You did make it to 60 days. Titanic!! 60 days is nothing to sneeze at. I know I was absolutely AMAZED when I made it to 60 days. Frankly, I was amazed when I made it to 60 hours! You now have the advantage of knowing you CAN give up alcohol.

3. Like Whoo-Hoo, I remember when you first showed up here. Remember that business trip you took, BY YOURSELF -- and you were what? 3 weeks sober at that point or something like that? You did NOT DRINK!! That was a REALLY STUNNINGLY DIFFICULT THING TO ACCOMPLISH!! I am so IN AWE of you for being able to do that!!

Everyone here is right. This was not a failure unless you LET it defeat you, and from the tone of your posts, it sounds like you're not willing to do that! So good for you!! And you know everyone here at DS is here for you whenever you need us!

Im Broken - Ive missed hearing from you. :)

Well good morning my little freinds. I have had a wonderful sober unhungover morning (well afternoon, im lazy lol)

I am so glad i chose not to drink yesterday, it felt great.

Today im feeling very positive. though I am going to talk to my partner today to tell him I wont be going to the alcohol shop ever again.

The bottle of wine (which he said he would drink to get rid of it, but didnt) is going into the bin today.

I love this feeling of being awake.

I'm glad you feel better today. I don't think your partner should be throwing too many stones at you for your lapse, since he drinks in front of you and asked you to buy alcohol. During this early phase in your sobriety, he really ought to keep is drinking to a minimum (at least at home, with you). Just a personal opinion, but welcome back to the world of the living!

i screwed up a few years ago after 2 years sober and it was hard to get back. i stayed out there for 2 yrs and then one day just knew i could get sober again and did and now have 9 and a half months. so if me and so many others can do this so can YOU

60 days of sobriety is never a waste, the waste was that you took a drink and went on a bender, so if you can do it the first time you can do it again, some people give up and they keep drinking and then bad things start happening, I know a person dying right now from alcoholism.

You blew it, you admit it, now move forward. Alcoholism is as much a mental bondage as physical, so get yourself around people (AA) who will help you heal and change your mind.

60 days is pretty darn good. That's 60 days your live got to experience healing, too. In time, your body will begin to prefer the healthy feeling and you will too. Before you know it, you'll start seeking ways to keep the good feelings about not drinking, instead of looking to the past.

One day at a time!
Johanna

Well im back in the game. My 2 day bender has been replaced by two days sober.

Im hoping they cancel each other out lol.

Thank you everyone for the support. Im feeling very strong again. xxx

Thank you for sharing. In reaching out to you, we help to strengthen the power of forgiveness within ourselves.

We're all in this together.

Johanna

I know you feel awful now, I did this kind of thing for years. Dont rate your 60 days of sobriety as a waste, no sober days are ever a waste. I have got 9 months now and I treasure every day, and there are plenty of days when I feel like drinking, people with 20 years sobreity still feel like it at times! At least you know you want sobriety, if you feel so bad about relapsing...keep it up, one day at a time, even one hour at a time...