MaryinLouisville
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- I am basically an introvert, seldom take leadership roles, but I keep wondering why there are no SI 12 step support groups ANYWHERE!! I'm curious why not; I think it could possibly be a great help to those of us who suffer. Does anyone know how I...
- I'm really desperate. I started going to AA meetings as "I'm Christy, I'm an addict". But what I really would like to be going to SI meetings. I'm in Boulder colorado. Can anyone help me? Thanks
- What I do to myself is no different than using drugs or alcohol. They are the same urges, temporary relief, which begin the cycle of my behavior. Somehow I think I can harm myself, saying that after 'this time' I'll be over with it. That has...
- to know if a therapist is right for ME? I've had a few sessions. She's nice, ethical, smart. So why shouldn't I wonder if she's not right? I just don't feel comfortable. I feel a lot of shame because I'm not doing better. Anyone relate?
- and I don't want to. I don't feel like I'm ready. I can't say I'm going to abstain because I don't think I'm really ready. I feel like I should stop using this website because I'm not serious about stopping. I know SI ing is not a 'good' thing to...
- because it not only looks awful, but it HURTS when I do it. Does anyone feel the physical pain or do most of us just go numb?
- The reason for my SIs is to punish myself. I never felt forgiven by the Catholic church for sins of sex when I was growing up so I punish myself. Then the SIs took on a life of their own to deal with all my anxiety. I realize that maybe one way I...
- wanting to isolate, feel scared and panicky without connecting to the 'why', sometimes feel nauseated without reason, when I think of my mother and how she was always watching me, lots of weird stuff in my life, a very painful life, and I'm 70 years...
- even though I knew I shouldn't be doing it. I ignored what my mind was saying. I guess that's the addiction part of this dependent behavior. My arm was really healing up till now and I'm so disappointed in me. I know saying that to myself isn't...
- that I was "tooting my horn" about having had some success with baby steps. Well, this morning the whole hour ish while I was on the computer I was chewing my nails. Sometimes I wish I could cut my hands off (just kidding not a thing to joke...
- that my SI has improved some, not perfect but I need to acknowledge my baby steps. I know I'm not cured but I'm proud of my work at this point. Many thanks to all of you and the support I get from hearing your honest stories about where you're at....
- I just can't get rid of this awful panicky sick to my stomach feeling like it's a reminder of something precise but I just can't seem to reach it. I remember this awful nauseated and afraid feeling that happened over the years in certain situations...
- length of SI abstinence, but I keep trying. I don't want to stop the SI support because I'm embarrassed or full of so much shame that I haven't stopped. It just seems that so many of us have had an amount of abstinence that they can be proud of. ...
- I don't know where to start. I've been an SIer since I was very young. I've suffered from Anxiety, Depression, PTSD, and so much more. Anyway tonight my SI wounds have been getting a little better gradually and I don't want to SI tonight. Lately...
- Just beginning on line with the ED support. I am also struggling with SI. My ED pattern has been to want to restrict so I can binge, but then my mind says I will gain weight. I want to resist that so I'm healthy and not have such an urge to...