MrGleevec

13 Sept '10...3:15 pm and I am still awake, not by choice but due ti this freaking pain I have in  my hips and back, goes all the way down to my legs. Took some pain killers, but it's killing me...

Browsing through this site (Daily Strength) makes me realize, now and again, that there are so many medical conditions that people are suffering from, I think  that are worst than what I have (CML)....

Ran 5 miles today...feeling better but lonely...sometimes I feel so lonely and alone...OMG this is a terrible feeling...oh well, no use complaining. Just another day.

I know I have to fight this feeling, but sometimes the pain just consumes me...I try to do everything that I can do normally, but I feel something wrong inside me...pain and the body is not the way...

Went jogging yesterday, not so bad today...just have to fight this...

oh i am so tired, and in soooo much pain   

13 Sept '10...3:15 pm and I am still awake, not by choice but due ti this freaking pain I have in  my hips and back, goes all the way down to my legs. Took some pain killers, but it's killing me...

Past 1 in the morning and I still can't sleep like most of my nights my thoughts are filled with uncertainties about what's next ...no income, no insurance, there goes the house , etc...still not...

so after all the hoopla about sloan cancer center in NY, they based all their conclusions an all the exams/slides i had with my oncologist here in CT, i thought at least they would do some test of...

So far all the doctors i have seen couldn't give me any straight answer as to why my hip hurts so bad, that i can not walk anymore.i had a back surgery due to herniated discs (2)the surgeon says my...

Another day has gone,I'm still all alone, What could it be............I think music and their words keeps me going, (not to mention my 5 year old baby). Got to see another specialist to find out...

Gone to my neorologist today, learned some abnormalities with my hip MRI, same abnormalities from the first MRI they did on me, now I am to see a certain orthopedic oncologist next Tuesday, hopefully...

Received few letters from concerned people, somehow it gives me something to look forward to, aside from the sunset...Out of work and can not do anything is just too frustrating and depressing.Not to...

Another month almost gone , only a couple of hours left, life is good...so they say...sigh...

Another day, so so so, what to write...it is supposed to help me.anyways, nothing spectacular happening, except everything still sucks. Still no work, can not work...my wife doesn't need or want me,...