garrykowalewski

I don't think anyone in my life understands how much pain I am going through right now. Kim was the love of my life, the light in the darkness, my reason for living, my best and only real friend, not...

Why ask if you don't want to hear the truth? Yes I usually say I'm ok or fine, especially to more casual acquaintences. But if my family or close freinds ask when I have a bad morning I usually tell...

Very cold yesterday and today. Rough time sleeping without her to snuggle with.

Kim, my love,I've loved you since the first time I saw you, on June 1st of 2000 when I picked you up for our first date. You wear wearing khaki shorts and a tan blouse. I felt a twinge in my chest...

I met with the lawyers today, 2 of them are working together on this case and have decided to take it. It will be a long hard expensive time but the Dr or Dr's need to take responsibility for my...

The memory of the day we closed on our first house 7 years ago came flooding back to me yesterday brought me to tears here at my desk. From the moment, we got up in the morning to the ride to the...

This evening I have my first widow group, I don't really know what to expect. I am sure everyone will be relatable. I hardly slept last night even after taking the Ambien. I don't know how to handle...

Don't know why but the past couple days been real hard. The ambien only help me sleep 2-3 hours,  have found the only thing working for better sleep is washing my beard with her shampoo before I lay...

I gave your Pandora bracelet to your best friend Heather on Sunday. I saw the "my princess " charm I got you on it. I am still crying about it. I want you to know that you will always be my princess...

I know she's in heaven because heaven is wherever she is. 

Dearest Kim,Thank you for the best years of my life. Though they didn't last as long as they should have I will think of them and you at least daily. It wasn't supposed to be like this. I will always...

Water therapy today for my knee today only my 2nd. Knee is really sore now but I don't have the luxury to rest it much. Have to take care of dogs now and I have no help around the house. I really...

Honey, I miss you so much. I feel like shit.

I'm soooo sorry baby. I love you so fuckin much.

Heard your Guns N Roses this morning on the way in. Instantly brought tears to my eyes and sobs in my throat. Almost had to pull over, thought I was going to have an anxiety attack. Now I sir here at...