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Went back to the counsellor this week.  He has suggested that I do a genogram, so I thought I might do it and then finish it with the counsellor.  That will take some time, but hey I've got two...

I have now discovered how good the doc is that I see.  He has asked me that is I think of self harm then go to the clinic and he'll fit me in to his appointments.  Last week  after speaking to the...

I went to counselling yesterday and I am more positive about the future now.  I have more appointments booked.

I am so sick and tired of having this feeling of wanting to self harm, and of feeling so bad.  I am so sick of feeling depressed most of the time. How long will it be before I stop having thoughts...

I got back today from going to my grandpas funeral.  I hate seeing family because of the way I end up feeling.  I always end up feeling like I haven't achieved much.  Then I have to go through...

At the moment I am feeling crap.  I feel so sick and also tired and I have a flight tonight to Melbourne.  I don't know if it is medication or not. Pa died last Sat. so that is why I am going to...

I have actually managed to look after myself better these past two weeks, which is a change. The only spot is that I am still doing extra shifts at work because I would rather be there than sitting...

I am so sick of the feeling I have that I need to trust me at work with their lives, but I can't trust those who are freinds when I need it the most.  I don't know how to ask for help. I just seem...

Went to the doctors after work today. I have an infection from my last self harm and feel crap from that. The doc wanted to see the wound, but I avoided that. Then there was the discussion about why...

I am so tired that I am beyond sleeping.  On Friday I worked a double shift and tomorrow morning I have an early start. I suppose I can say that I then have two days off.  Sometimes I just want to...

I am not sure what goals I want to set.  I find it difficult at present to set goals as I don't know what i want to do. For work I need to set goals and I find this difficult as I don't know what I...

I am so sick of the depression and the feeling that I want to self harm.  Sometimes I can't find a reason not to.  At work I spend my time making sure that the patients are doing what they should...

This is the first entry. I journal normally but haven't done this lately.  I spoke with someone today and told them how I was going, and the answer was not one they wanted to hear.  For the last...