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I am so sick of the feeling I have that I need to trust me at work with their lives, but I can't trust those who are freinds when I need it the most.  I don't know how to ask for help. I just seem...

Went to the doctors after work today. I have an infection from my last self harm and feel crap from that. The doc wanted to see the wound, but I avoided that. Then there was the discussion about why...

I am so tired that I am beyond sleeping.  On Friday I worked a double shift and tomorrow morning I have an early start. I suppose I can say that I then have two days off.  Sometimes I just want to...

I am not sure what goals I want to set.  I find it difficult at present to set goals as I don't know what i want to do. For work I need to set goals and I find this difficult as I don't know what I...

I am so sick of the depression and the feeling that I want to self harm.  Sometimes I can't find a reason not to.  At work I spend my time making sure that the patients are doing what they should...

This is the first entry. I journal normally but haven't done this lately.  I spoke with someone today and told them how I was going, and the answer was not one they wanted to hear.  For the last...

This last week has been a week from hell.  I had to tell a patients family that the patient had died, and I had to do it again, the next night a patient a severe fall and we had a medical emergency...

It has been a strange couple of months.  It is strange now, I spent two and a bit weeks in hospital.  Another medication chane and this time ECT was done.  This seemed to work and now I feel...

I have decided that counselling is continuing so therefore I have put it at 100%.  I know that the counselling is not over but I continue to go and will do so because it is good.Self harm is right...

I am feeling so much better. if I am sad, then I am sad, if I have an emotion then I wont ignore it but accept it and deal with it.  Last week at counselling I had a realisation that I didn't have...

There is aDVD titled 'Things you don't say.'  It nade me think of things you don't say.  You don't say that your mind is screwed up.  You don't say that 'someone has screwed your body.'  You...

Thought I would write something. Things have been going well, the new meds working well.  Work has been busy, but good.

Since the last entry I have spent two weeks in hospital, and had my meds changed to cymbalta which has only become available here.  It has worked better than the previous one.  My mood has been so...

I am tired at present. Work was ok this week, I was in charge on thursday, which I still haven't decided if it is good or bad.  I am unsure how I am feeling because I feel tired.  I have been...

Went back to work, and it is fine. I was so glad to be back.Have been feeling better, but I will wait until I have a period of time feeling good before I relax.