another day.

I am so sick of the depression and the feeling that I want to self harm.  Sometimes I can't find a reason not to.  At work I spend my time making sure that the patients are doing what they should all the while knowing that I should be listening to the words I am saying.I just want to scream.AhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!