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Did you send me the ladybug at the beach and the penny from heaven with your birth year on it?  The ladybug just flew on me and stayed a few minutes and then few away.  Of course, I thought of you...

It's hard to believe that yesterday you turned two.  We planned a day at the boardwalk but had to settle on icecream and the game room at the campground.  We had four inches of rain.  That's...

Today, we found planters of a frog and turtle with flowers in them.  We brought them and put them in your garden.  I'm glad that most of your garden is sunny but there is a little area that has...

Yesterday evening we went to a mass of remembrance and healing.  It was so nice.  It's a mass for the loss of children.  You bring up a picture of your child and light a candle.  Ella brought...

Your Memorial Garden is starting to grow.  I brought more plants to add to it, but I don't think it is warm enough to plant them yet.  By May 1st, it should be warm enough.  I'm planning on...

We put up the Christmas trees on Sunday.  One for Ella, one for Gavin and one for you.  Ella's has fairies, Gavin's has trains and cars and yours has angels.  Ella helped me decorate yours.  Now,...

Today, was Gavin first day of kindergarten.  This was so hard.  Last year James was with us to bring Gavin to his first day of Pre-K.  All the memories came back of bringing James and everybody...

August 28 was James' birthday.  We wanted to focus on James' short life and not his death so we celebrated by going to the Ocean City Boardwalk with his brother, sister and cousins.  I stayed home...

Tuesday my sister, her grandson and my granddaughter went to the aquarium  and on the boardwalk in Pt. Pleasant.  It was suppose to be a grandson's outing but Gavin didn't want to go so I had to...

Well, James....it's been five months now and I miss you so much.  I wish I could hold you, hug you, give you kisses and take you to the beach.  We think of you all the time and we all talk about...

James, Ella and Gavin's school is having a remembrance garden.  Your mom bought a bench and some plants and they gave us a spot that we can put it.  So now, we have a spot that we can sit and...

Today, at mass the mass intentions was for James.  I took a Xanax before I went so I handled it OK.  It's just so hard to believe that it has been three months since his mass of the angels.I just...

You been an angel for three months now.  I miss you more and more.  I keep thinking of all the things you would be doing if you were here.  You would be 7 1/2 months and would probably be crawling...

Another sad day for me.  My dog that I had for 15 years died today.  I will miss her but I can accept it.  She brought me alot of joy and was good company.  I also loss two cats, all within the...

Dear James,The Easter Bunny left you a beanie baby bunny next to your ashes.  I  planned on celebrating so many firsts with you and missing out on your first Easter is hard.  You will always be...