Tazmom09

About Me

I am \"highly educated, \" as they say, and I\'ve had a secure, stable job since 2002. since that time, Ive also married, bought a modest home, given birth to a beautiful son, and generally (from all outside appearances) seemed to be living \"The Dream.\" As most of you can identify with, pretending to have it \"all together\" can be very exhausting. I now understand the concept of \"nervous breakdowns\" and \"exhaustion\" requiring hospitalization (you know, what the celebs always say). Not surprisingly, It took a long time for me to admit that I needed help and seek counseling. It took a hospitalization \"threat\" for me to admit that I needed medication. And it took further decompensation (e.g. heavy alcohol use, binge-purge cycling, etc) to realize that I REALLY needed help. I have longstanding depression, anxiety, and it has become clearer that i\'m somewhere on the bipolar spectrum as well as possibly BPD. Don\'t exactly know, but I do know that I suffer more than I thought possible. So, it\'s great to find a community of folks who know what this is like, and with whom I can share my real experiences. that said, I\'m very private and protective of my identity, given my job situation and my family....I hope that this incognito status doesn\'t interfere to much with your trust.