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- I haven't been on in almost a year. I found a site on fb and that was a horror story in its self. it was just easier I thinking looking on there and sharing cause it just would show up in my feeds. long story short ed joined the group under my...
- im still around just not posting, I read once in a while. missing my grandsons like crazy and thinking to contact ed to see if I can see them. STOP ME PLZ...it's a bad idea I must stay focused and NEVER return to that dark place again..but DAMN IT I...
- well I made it through mothers day of course nothing from ed, I see she changed her profile pic to the wicked witch of the west. you know change your fb page to your mom..i have to chuckle a bit about it, at least she is thinking about me. therapy...
- I am not feeling hurt nor am I crying about this dreaded holiday weekend. I am better then in years past as I would just cry and cry but I have been a total bitch yesterday and today. my youngest daughter said to me, your just upset over ED and...
- I went to the fair today with my 2 daughters and son and granddaughter, the entire time I was on the look out that my ed would show up and was unsure what I would do. I would have loved to see my grandsons but I was so worried that they might have...
- haven't posted in a few weeks. I am going to therapy it is helping soooooooooo much. I also think the new meds iam on for depression are also helping ALOT..i stopped crying non stop since that really dark period in December. I really like my...
- iam still friends with my oldest gs on fb he is 12. I see he and my other gs went camping . it's so hurtful that , that once was me being with them on camping trips. i have blocked ed fb page but he was tagged by ed husband sister. i am not friends...
- haven't been on for a few weeks. went to counseling 3 times last month, non this month yet she cancelled my appointment yesterday but rescheduled for this Tuesday. I don't know how to take her yet. and last session left on a note that I really need...
- well I went to my counseling session on Wednesday afternoon. I was more understandable this time as the first I was off the wall going back and forth how she ever understood what I was saying is beyond me. anyways I was able talk in a no wacked way...
- well I made it through not contacting ed with a birthday wish. thank God and you all for making me think and not do it. this was a hard weekend as ed b-day was Friday and yesterday was my baby sister's that passed away b-day also. for years we...
- I didn't send the text. thank God. last night youngest daughter and I had a conversation and it really made me cry. she said she was tired of seeing me cry ever day about ed/her sister. it really hurts her to see me this way. that I need to let go...
- tomorrow is ed b-day..she will be 37 wow ..of course it's non stop on my mind all day , I went over to middle daughters right before dark to just get out of the house..i am thinking of texting ed happy birthday..maybe that would be better then the...
- I am weak...I wrote the card out to ed..im so stupid , I am going back and forth to mail it. I have to go to the post office today to mail a quilt to my niece so I will be there to mail it. got it addressed and put it in my purse..i don't know I...
- well I called my insurance and the counseling session is covered by my insurance with only a co-pay not having to meet my deductible. so I am looking forward to going Wednesday. this is for myself not with ed. I choose to do that when I was in that...
- trying to get this off my mind and just wanted to see if I should send it and what to say or just forget it. if you remember I saw my gs at his bus stop on 12/18 and then really crashed that weekend. when I had decided to do the goodby with my gs at...