KaybeyBaby

Oh, my friends, I feel I have just cheated on you.  I copied my last journal entry and posted it on my new blog: www.AchievingConceiving.blogspot.com.  Please come visit whenever you want, and know...

Long ago I used to call them "breasts."  Now that I am married and have succumbed to the influence of my husband, I call them "boobies."   Now that I'm on my second IVF, and with a different...

Sadness is so sticky.  Of all the emotions I've had today, sadness just showed up and stuck around.  I got an email from a pregnant friend.  Why can't I be pregnant?  I've tried so hard.

Infertility is such a complicated topic, with medical, emotional, financial, and geneaological implications, that everybody reacts to it differently. It's very touching to see my parents trying to...

The pregnancy test was negative, of course.    We went by the drugstore on the way home yesterday, and James surreptitiously put the bag containing the test in the cabinet in the downstairs...

I got my period today.  Here is why that's no good: 1) It's only Day 24.  I usually run long, not short. 2) My upcoming-period pimples only just showed up today.  They usually show up a week...

My friend Carolynn, the mother of my Godsons, wrote me back when I sent her a copy of the journal entry I'd written about her a few days ago.  This is what she said, and what I say in response is,...

I should not be allowed to do anything.  A dear friend sent me some brownies, and much to my appreciation and approval, my husband hid them after I'd had a handful. Today I have been looking at...

After their first IVF, Ashley and her husband went on a vacation to New York that they "couldn't afford not to take."  My 36-hour trip to New Hampshire this weekend was just like that.  Though I...

Earlier this week I was thrown into a fit of anguish when something my husband said lit a flicker of hope in me.  Yesterday, after we met and signed up with the new RE, we were feeling hopeful in a...

I've been thinking a lot about getting into shape, specifically into the shape of the models on J.Jill's website.  As I look at those clothes, I find that what I really want to order from their...

I went to my introductory appointment at Shady Grove and the best thing happened: I fell in love.  There are no heart-rending baby pictures in the lobby, this location is small with only two...

Just heard that another friend is pregnant.  She sent me and four other women friends a mass email and it was really joyous.  I wonder if she thought about me before she did it.  She knows what...

This week I've been faced with big decisions and a tight time frame, and they've been driving me batty.  I've been going back to my old tricks, my old depression symptoms. Four and a half years ago...

Things like this put me over the edge. James wrote me this in an email about what we should plan to do this summer:  "We also need to come up with some time to put in our porch.  Actually, I am...