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I've been wondering why I haven't been feeling like b/p since I got back from treatment. At first I was like "OMG, did it actually work?" I was pretty pissed cuz I am not ready to get over my ED and...

I just got back from two months in an ED Recovery Center last Tuesday. It sucked majorly but I made the best of it, I've gotten pretty good at that over the course of my eating disorder. I think my...

I've been wondering why I haven't been feeling like b/p since I got back from treatment. At first I was like "OMG, did it actually work?" I was pretty pissed cuz I am not ready to get over my ED and...

I just got back from two months in an ED Recovery Center last Tuesday. It sucked majorly but I made the best of it, I've gotten pretty good at that over the course of my eating disorder. I think my...

So my bulimia is really out of control lately. I am stealing food at least once a day and overdosing on laxatives and diet pills all the time. Two days ago my parents went through my stuff and found...

I binged and purged today. grrrr! I went to whole days without either of the two and today I totally screwd up. (sulking)

wow man. It's been awhile since I've written anything in here. Status Report: still Bulimic, still suffering from borderline (BPD) BUT no SI in a week :) and my depression is getting better. I...

I SUCK!!!! I ate a fucking HUGE breakfast and when I went to purge it....I COULDN'T GET ANYTHING OUT!!! UUUUUUUUUGH, I am so pissed off right now. Fuck food for making me fat, Fuck Bulimia for making...

I got caught peircing my tongue in the school bathroom. Had my tongue ring in for about 2 minutes before the cops made me take it out. 2 fucking minutes!! after all that blood- ew, and all that pain-...

Blech. Today was a sick day and I had to stay home all alone :( I ate so much. It is not even 4pm yet and I have allready had almost 800 calories. Although, 200 of that was a scrumptious (thought I...

I am so depressed, I really can't fit it into words. I wish that I could collect my feelings in jars and give them to people so that someone could actually experience how I feel and realise that I...

Phew, that was close. That Bulimia relapse I was having where I was an emotional, gorging wreck!!...false alarm, I was just PMSing :) I have very irregular periods so I never know when they are...

Spent pretty much the whole night at Bobby's just hanging out. He is getting his house remodeled so they have this brand new HUGE bath tub. We just sat in it and drew pictures with shaving cream on...

Ugh, I am having a relapse. I am seriously depressed about this. I am back to puking at least 4 times a day. I am just so stressed out. Every kid at school is smarter than me, every girl is prettier...