Scottsmom

I was once told by someone that the death of a child becomes deeply personal over time.  I didn't really get it at the time but I know that I do not talk about my son - it is too painful - it is how...

Yesterday my uncle died - I watched him take his last breaths just like I did with Scott, my mother and recently my father.  I don't even cry any more.  I feel like a mutant freak unable to cry or...

Yesterday my uncle died - I watched him take his last breaths just like I did with Scott, my mother and recently my father.  I don't even cry any more.  I feel like a mutant freak unable to cry or...

Yesterday my uncle died - I watched him take his last breaths just like I did with Scott, my mother and recently my father.  I don't even cry any more.  I feel like a mutant freak unable to cry or...

I don't know why this is happening but I used to get notifications in my e-mail if someone wrote a new journal entry or uploaded photos.  I haven't had anything in over a week.  Is anyone else...

Was in the shower this morning thinking about something really thought provoking (how come I can't buy conditioner as good as the stuff in the bottles of hair dye) when I remebered how much Scott...

Been thinking about how we are placed in roles we never asked for - caretaker for father, mother missing her child.  Never imagined either role for myself but here I am - feeling really really lousy.

I have been thinking about Scott a lot these last few days - not the loss of Scott, just Scott, who he was, what he liked, the way he sounded.  I have movies of Scott and  after 4 1/2 yrs. I still...

Yesterday my doctor prescribed prozac for me.  I know what some people think about it but unless I start developing an appetitie to eat humans, I don't care if it makes me a zombie.  Would be an...

So heartbreaking to see pictures of our beautiful children on this website.  I would glady trade places with any of them.  If only life worked that way.

Feeling better last few days now that the deposition is behind me and we have returned to some kind of normalcy (I use the word normalcy loosly). Todd goes back to teaching soon, after having summer...

I don't know what to do with myself since I got back from N.Y. Trip very unsettling.  Trying to figure things out but haven't been to successful.  New York was home for 45 years.  Too painful to...

Glad to be home - living in Nevada with all these mountains, it is easy to imagine - I am halfway to heaven.

Just came home from the hospital (my favorite place) had to have my galbladder removed and then antother surgery to remove stones from the bile duct (13 total). It's too bad there is no surgery to...

This depostion that I  have to give in July is really weighing on me.  I am already losing sleep over it and have some physical symptoms too.  I know as the weeks pass, my anxiety level will get...