abielle

My online diary came back. Not sure why it was gone in the first place, but it is back now.I had been going to the outpatient treatment for 4 weeks, wasn;t getting any better. I decided to go...

i have kept an online diary for ten years, and it is gone. the website where the blog was located is not there anymore. it was three days ago, now, it's gone.will it come back?is this my lesson in...

i don't know if this is something that meds can help me with, but i have no motivation to do anything. i am guessing it is a symptom of my depression, because it isn't always like this. i just lay in...

I just got a call from the outpatient program. I will be going in for my assessment on Monday, and most likely starting on Wednesday. I am scared of med changes. I tend to be very sensitive to side...

I am feeling so disconnected and sick. I can't stop shaking. I have been awake since one in the morning, just couldn't get back to sleep...I want to leave work so badly, but I know I have to try to...

I couldn't sleep last night. I had such a good day on Sunday, and then I couldn't calm my mind down. My eyes were tired, my body was tired, but my mind wouldn't quiet down. I finally drifted off...

I worked out twice today at the gym.Walked/ran 4 miles then went back later for a yoga class!Feeling so much better than I was earlier in the week.Thank God! Here's hoping this feeling sticks...

I am going to work out at 430, followed by yoga at 530. I can't wait. I am feeling very motivated today. Just trying not to drink too much coffee though. I won't weigh myself for another week or so,...

I was in bed, and asleep at 630pm last night. I woke at about 730pm with that old familiar feeling of muscle spasm/restless muscle type feelings all over my body. I don't know where they come from,...

maybe if i write about it, it will go away?i am having a panic attack at work. i think i had too much coffee.o man, this is bad.shaking, can't think, feeling so jumpy, starting to get tunnel...

the mood of the last entry, lasted about 20 minutes. see-saw moods. up and down. i had a beer yesterday, it made me feel wierd. put me out of commission. then i binged and purged for hours. i...

sometimes all i can hope for is to "feel better right now." i can't dwell on how i felt yesterday, or what suprises lie ahead of me tomorrow. i can only live in the moment.i am going to clean my...

this mirror is more forgiving.  i have had a couple glasses of wine.  feeling like things aren't as bad as i tell myself they are. or, not as bad as they really are. depends on how i look at it....

Pregnancy test was negative. Thank God. Today I am feeling worse mood-wise than I have in a few weeks. Between the weather, and my med change, as well as the continuing worsening of my acne, my...

i don't feel like i did very well with food today, but as i tally it up, maybe i didn't do so bad.i didn't eat anything till about 3pm. i didn't plan to wait that long, but i woke up at noon, then...