outpatient

I just got a call from the outpatient program. I will be going in for my assessment on Monday, and most likely starting on Wednesday. I am scared of med changes. I tend to be very sensitive to side effects. I am going to go in with an open mind. And hope I have a doctor who listens to me. I won't be able to have my regular doctor during this time.
I am also worried about money, and I won't be getting paid for about a month due to not having any more sick time left. My mom said she would help me. I just hate asking for it though. I don't feel very deserving. There is so much wrong with me, I feel like a total loser, why can't I just get better?