still difficult but im ok

I still cringe a little when I hear my ex's name and that he's doing so well.....am I really angry or am I just lieing to myself that I am so I can force myself to get over it?

Either way I have to be ok, I dont have a choice. I have to tell myself everyday that it doesnt matter anymore what he thinks of me, he had his chance and he tore my heart out all becuase he's a selfish manipulative man child.

I will not go back to him, I will never think of him fondly ever again and I will not let him control my thoughts and feelings. I have my own life and he will never be a part of it.