I am sorry missmom that you are going thru this. I hope you are able to find some things to do to keep your mind occupied. It helps doing things that will keep you from thinking about it. I know it's hard but you know what's right and wrong. I am sure you can pull thru this. :)

Thank you anglvette. SO SO difficult. I am busy but I have this incredible dull pain that is constant and insistent. It's hard to just be.

how nice of him to punish you for. . . what?

I've helped him with some banking stuff. He owns a construction company. Thursdays is the only day we could make it to the bank together since it closes late and we both work full time. I had warned him on wednesday that I couldn't make it on thursday since I had an evening appointment (I didn't tell him it was for my nails lol). But whatever, I am always at his disposal, I just really didn't give a crap that I had to let him down for once. So he called me on Thursday morning to ask again, if I really couldn't make it to teh bank. I guess he thought I was joking. Again, I said no, I was busy. He was pissed. and so felt compelled to punish me the following weekend by eliminating the possibility of seeing him all weekend. Nice. I would normally react like a pathetic child and I did not this time. Haven't heard from him since.

Miss you are doing so awesome. It's crazy how much all of our guys have in common huh? Sounds like something mine might do. Remember our deal: we are in this together today. I am going NUTS. I just left the gym and want to drive to hia barracks room soooo bad and just stand there. I have no idea why. I think you are finally showimg him you deserve better. Have you been to the reclaim site yet? The other ladies here turned me onto it and I bought Nat's ebook on No Contact and it is really insightful. If nothing else, it will fill up another hour or two of your day. I'm with you lady...don't fall off the wagon today. We are halfway there.

NUTS sounds about right!
I drove my son to daycare this morning and I swear i saw about 10 Ford 250's (his vehicle) during the 7 minute drive to and from. I wanted to ram into every single one of them. Everywhere I turn I see construction, HATE IT!
I know he's scratching his head right now wondering why I haven't made contact. He MUST know I mean business, this is the longest I've ever gone with NC. Even the times we were broken up, I would text him some stupidity just to keep the communication open. Not this time. I think he thinks that since we are not officially broken up, he's still safe. But i give it another few days before he sends me some bogus text which isn't 'meant' for me. He's so childish like that.
My goal is to make it until July 8th which is when I leave for a much needed 3 day getaway with my gf's. He doesn't know about it. would love for him to txt me then, so i can answer with 'sorry dude, I'm away, have a good one !'

I would just be careful that your using NC as a means to end the relationship, heal amd move on and bot as a way to get him "interested" or "snap him out of it" so you can get back together. I know the feeling of both and I struggle to remind myself I'm doing it for ME and to heal and get on with my life and not for him...not yo win him back, not to get his attention, for no reason other than finally cutting him out of my life. I love him so much that the idea makes me sick, but I'm a grown woman and I know that going back isn't going to get me anywhere.

yup, that is the struggle I face every moment of my day.
I do still hope that he will wake up and realize what he's lost. It's hard not to.

I got to the point where I just didn't want to play their game anymore too. stay strong. you don't need this childish behavior going on in your life.

For so long, since the beginning actually, I have allowed this to happen, over and over.
The first time I ended it, it was due to the distance he created over the course of just a day. We had gone from calling and texting nearly every hour of the day to nothing. I couldn't handle it and ended it. During that month we were broken up, he would call me in teh middle of the night, I'd allow it because I was so relieved that he was thinking about me. I woudl ask to see him and he'd decline. He got his fix, he felt reassured that I was still hanging on so that would hold him over for a few days until the next tease. It was excruciating and very confusing. He just wouldn't let me move on. Now it's been almost a week and he hasn't tried so I'm kinda thinking he's moved on and doesn't care either way what I'm up to. This could be a blessing in disguise but i gotta be honest, it hurts liek hell.

I understand entirely, except I know mine has moved on...and it's killing me. I don't know what changed over the course of a few weeks to make him hate me but something did. The last time I talked to him he was so cruel I hardly knew I was talking to the same person. Since that day, I've maintained NC and I suspect he doesn't even notice.

What I've come to understand Maryland, is that it is hardly ever about me or you.
A while back, my very first serious boyfriend contacted me on facebook. I haven't seen him since 1999, the day I broke up with him, which was also the day he proposed to me (after I broke up with him). He contacted me because he needed to apologize for unfairly he treated me during our 4 year relationship. He was also emotionally broken, he cheated on me and he was just basically a complete sh*t with me. I asked him during that interaction, why he was so horrible and he said it had nothing to do with me. He said almost entirely, he treated me so bad because he was very unhappy with himself. He mirrored his treatment of me with how he felt towards himself. He said to this day, 13 years later, he still misses me terribly.
So don't ask yourself what you've done wrong or what could have possibly changed in such a short period of time. He doesn't hate you. he hates himself and God, who could blame him if he's such a d*ckhead!?

yeah but don't you want someone that's stable and consistent? someone that will show up? a real man? this guy seems to act like a teenager. I know know know you can do better.

He may hate himself but not enough to not be with another woman (one he tells me is a great woman) ugh fml

Of course I want someone stable and consistent. And yes, I CAN do better. and I will.

The other woman is most liekly an enabler, Maryland. And like with everything else, the novelty will wear off.