I've been doing a lot of working on myself and focusing on myself and generally trying to avoid my ABF when he's drunk and not react to the really dark or mean things he says sometimes. 

And generally, things have been going better because of that. But it's meant that we don't really spend much time together. We're young, in our 20s, and we haven't been on a date in like 4 months. 

He just keeps drinking more and more. He used to just drink heavily on Friday and Saturday night. In the past few months, he's started drinking right when he wakes up on Saturday. And then this past weekend we were at my parents' house and he still started drinking in the morning.

It's just so emotionally draining to deal with him when he's drinking. And although I've been doing better at avoiding it, I've realized that we never do anything fun or productive on the weekends because he's too drunk to do anything.

I love him so much. I know the reason he drinks is because he's depressed. He had a lot of unpleasant things happen to him when he was a kid, but refuses to deal with his demons or go to therapy. He knows he has a problem, but always gives me an excuse for why he's drinking, even though I've stopped asking for excuses. 

And he just doesn't understand what I've had to put up with, or how hard it is to be with an A. Doesn't appreciate what I've sacrificed at all. 

I just don't know where to go from here. I would love to support him if he was in recovery, but he doesn't seem to want that.