i am having a rough night. After a day of what i thought was a good family day, i noticed the switch in behavior. He became mean, swearing in front of our 2 year old and just verbally abusive. Of course he kept denying it until i caught him with the bottle of vodka in his hand. We sat down to talk which i know should be pointless when he is like this. He basically said he drinks because of me. I have caused him all the stress that causes him to drink. I know i shouldn’t believe him but it hurts. It just hurts so bad to be told you are the reason. he has hurt me so much over the years and i have worked so hard to try to help him. And the thing he says i drove him to drink today, is just stupid. We got somewhere late today and it was crowded and i made a comment that we should have gotten there earlier. I took too long to get ready so it was me that made us late. He said i was criticizing him and that is what caused him to drink. I don’t even understand how he thinks i was criticizing him, i said it was my fault for not getting there earlier. And for the whole conversation he went on about all the things about me that make him drink. I know i have gotten upset and yelled at him or given him the silent treatment when i have caught him drinking.  But it is hard when someone has lied over and over again to you. I am frustrated because i feel so hurt by him and i don’t think he understands. Once he sobers up he think everything is ok and all should be forgiven. And during the conversation he says i am overly critical of his drinking and he is doing so much better. He just admitted about 2 years in addition to his drinking he was addicted to Xanax and now he isn’t taking it so i shouldn’t be so critical. I just feel so hurt.