I'm at almost 8 years and I remember the feelings you are struggling with. It does get easier or you adapt to their force. I would guess you're struggling now with the reality that this is permanent. The pain of that is part of grieving. It's also moving through it can't be true to it did happen. Each step brings its own pain, but you need to remember that you are feeling the effects of moving through the stages.

My hospice counselor told me once, you are where you need to be. I didn't like or understand her words. But she was and is right.

Another thing I struggled with was disappointment. I believed through Christ I could bear anything. I wasn't bearing very well. I wasn't failing Him. He was holding me through what I needed to feel. Sharon

Someone suggested you talk with your doctor to get your dosage increased. I suggest you stop taking it. It causes panic attacks, irritability, and a host of other bad things. It can be but a mask for your feelings and come with some unpleasant withdrawal symptoms when you decide you want to get off the stuff. Funny thing about grief is that some people head for the doctor and of course they are given antidepressants. Those pills do not take away the grief. I feel you would do much better with a counselor to help you talk your way through your pain and fears.

Maggie

I just want to reiterate that everyone grieves in their own way, and has the right to do so. Although some of you may not believe in taking medication, it might help another person. A person may also need something to give them a temporary lift, i.e. so they can fake it til they make it. It is not fair to apply your personal views on medication to everyone. Medication, therapy, supportive friends and family, etc. are ALL tools to help someone that is grieving. You should choose the combination of tools that helps YOU, without feeling guilty!

So I was in Shoppers Drug Mart, this afternoon...That's a big Drug Store, here in Canada....They have gigantic posters up showing people, supposedly they are the TYPE of clientele who shop there......
One giant poster is of a beautiful looking older couple.....Yes it happened!!!.........
that Tinge of Jealousy//sadness hit me.....It's NOT even jealousy it's
Just Grief of what COULD have been
Sandra

If anyone is considering stoping any antidepressant medication you need to taper off gradually, not just stop taking it. Please consult your doctor for a schedule of reduction.

I am aware that 5 month time since the lost my husband. In the morning I feel sad and find myself crying. Then I get busy and actually talk to my hubby. Then another meltdown, then better, then night and another cry spell, then better. I do find I talk out loud to him hoping he hears me.
it is hard. I saw us growing very old together, helping each other .
it has all changed. But my medicine /doctor has helped me tremendously.
I wish you a better day as each one goes by.

In the original post, Norske remarked that her medication "doesn't seem to be helping any more."

That makes me think that at some point, it did help, but now it doesn't. I agree that a consultation with the prescribing physician is in order. He may choose to increase, decrease, replace, or completely discontinue the Zoloft.

Maggie's comments are sound; some people do not do well with medication long term. I think her comment was meant to be helpful; nowhere in her response did she "apply personal views on medication to everyone."

One thing I've learned here on DS is that although we all share some aspects & experiences in the grief process, each person's grief is unique. Please let's all respect that.