First of all, please accept my sincere sympathy for your loss. At only three weeks your emotions are so raw...I remember it well. I also know how you feel. What a roller coaster this is. If it is of any help, what you are going through is not unusual. Please hang in there! Access this site frequently...it was a great help to me and I hope it is the same for you.

Hello and welcome. My sincerest sympathies, you are at the same age I was at when I went through the loss of my John. Today it's 27 months later.
I found out that I could not handle those trivial battles in those around me too. Because we have been taught in a very hard way, there may not be a chance to have a do over. So I would literally break down in angry tears, even asking them was this really a battle worth having?
I have finally mellowed, just a bit. I
I hope you will find your way through this with us. As you can see there are a lot here that know that feeling too.
gentle hugs,
Jewells

I am famous for having a short fuse which is usually connected to my mouth. I have issues with stupid. Death did not do this to me. I think it may be a birth defect.

Maggie

I have a short fuse also. Normally I'm quite patient(I work in healthcare) but since Paul died in March, people just get on my nerves. It's probably part of our grieving process(that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it). I've become quieter at work. I just tune the complainers out. I've always said "you can think it, you just can't say it". I think a lot!

I work in health care also, I always used to be very outgoing with
my patients but I have become quieter too. I think I am afraid to open
myself up to questions like what does your husband do? i am just not
capable at this point at answering that question with my husband passed away. I am sure the annoyance I am feeling with people is
all coming from my own emotions at this time but it is very difficult

I retired from health care, hospital work in an emergency department. I burned out after many years and worked part time in a nursing home. When Don was diagnosed I left to care for him. I couldn't return the short time later when he died. There wasn't much I felt I could do but breathe and cry. Just get through the day and at times the moment. It's hard, but we survive. Sharon

When you experience profound grief you get a reality check on what really matters. The positive aspect of this change of attitude is that it makes you a better and more caring person.

Kymberly

Sorry for the loss of your husband Tom. Remember take one moment at a time and take care of yourself. It's ok to be angry, sad and emotional. This roller coaster has many ups and downs but we are here for each other. Blessings Susan