I understand your feelings completley. I too would give everything I own just for one more day with my husband.

Farther away from the last time you were physically together but one day closer to the eternity you will share with him. That is how I have to look at it, one day closer to 'our' eternity.

"One more day, one more hour, one more sunset baby I'd be satisifed, but then again, I know what it would do, leave me wishin still for one more day with you."

Oakridge says it the way I feel.

Echo Oakridges' thoughts....but understand what you are feeling............

Julie,

If it helps, I do feel that I am getting closer to my husband now the further I am away from the actual trauma of what happened.....we were so frightened and under stress....and now I am thinking that I am kinda getting to go back in some areas unconsciously to our love and the good stuff.....I hug things of his and try to write directly to him but I do it on note paper...and in my mind or I say it out loud when i am thinking of him....I love him so much...I was scared I would start forgetting him....this is not going to happen...especially if he keeps hanging out with me in some of my dreams ;)

It does help a little. I do want time to speed up in a way so I can go to him sooner.
Surely we wouldn't forget them, but I'm scared of almost everything (except death) right now.

I have contact and dreams, too. they may be what is keeping me going. I even sleep pretty well, I think because he is with me at night.

Julie

Julie, I feel that way too. Right after my husband died, I remember my husband's best friend mentioning that he thought I would probably live a long life, possibly into my 90's. What?? I felt as if a dagger was plunged in me. When he said those words all I could think of is that I don't want to live all those years ahead without my husband. I didn't even think I would make it this far...Thinking ahead is scary and makes me anxious so I just try to focus on each day as it comes. It is hard. Hugs, Stephanie

I think that is very understandable.....The farther away from the last time and imagine scares us into thinking we forget their last voice and face even....

I found the farther away I was able to remember some really good fun memories clearer...still sad I can not have more but happier I can remember those...

HUGS

Thank you for posting this. I was afraid I might be the only person who felt this way. I wanted to grab the calendar and stop the days from coming anymore. I had had all the pain I could handle. But, as echoed above, each passing day brings us closer to our reunion. Hang in there and know that we all understand and support you!!

It has been 25 days without Wayne. We never went this long without seeing each other. I just can;t handle it, I want him back now.

Peace to you
Dually

Hi Julie

For me it is 2 month 8 days and i relive the last time we were together in my mind every day, I dont want to forget a single thing about our life together
One of my DS friends recently made me realise that it would never happen as I have so many wonderful memories that can never be erased
I have started a photo album of our life together starting with our wedding and with every photo that goes in more and more memories emerge some make me cry , some make me smile and some even make me laugh (Thanks for that Tom)

Hope you manage to find something that will help you realise you will always be together in your heart

Sending you Hugs

Pat x

I had the exact emotions and feelings. I was so afraid of forgetting. I wanted time to stand still. I think I was hoping if time didn't move on then it wouldn't be real. I am now at 16 months and know I will NEVER forget.
Hugs
Brenda

You will not forget. I am at 19 months for me the pain is not as sharp, but my memories have not lessened.

I am at almost 6 mos. and there are times when time has gone seemingly slow but when I see the months on the calendar progress, I see how quickly it has gone. I never thought I would get this far. I sometimes feel that I want my love to come back for just one more day but realize the pain of losing him again would be more than I can bear. I wish I had a recording somewhere so I could listen to his voice. I have been able to lately recall more of the good memories. The painful ones of the day he left this world and the early days after are starting to fade a bit.
I understand your fear of getting farther away, but you will begin to remember more of your life together as time goes by, not less.
Hugs, Gwen

I understand what you are feeling, and it is a sensation that comes and goes. I was 50 when Cliff died - at age 55. I turned 55 a couple months ago, and somehow it just didn't feel right that here I am now the same age that he was and him gone with no more birthdays. That he is forever 55 and I will keep on getting older (God willing of course). It's part of the jumble of emotions that come up, in weird ways and at weird times.

I can echo what the others have said - you won't forget, but with the passage of time the good memories come to the fore and the bad ones tend to fade away and become less important. And also, Cliff still shows up in my dreams, even after all this time - it will be 5 years in November for me.

Don't be frightened, you will be okay.

Love and Hugs,
Martha