I have a lot of alone time now and I don't like it. Before, my hsband and I carpooled to work, worked for the same company, had lunch together. Now not only is home different, so is work.

my poor friends! I alternate between 4 friends being with me, doing things ect..I think I exhaust them. Not used to being alone, and won't let myself try :( Ppl seem to know now that if they give me a few minutes, I will latch on and not them go very easily lol. I feel completely alone every minute though, no matter how many people I'm with...I only want to be with him and nothing fills that void :(

I agree with "warmth" - "that it is not being alone, but being without him.' I never felt lonely when I lived alone before meeting my husband. Now I am alone again and overwhelmingly lonely for my husband.

How well I relate to all of the comments here. Knowing that others are going through the same issues and feelings serves to remind me that it is 'normal'. Especially relate to Nicker07 - this was not our choice. None of us planned on this, there are no guidelines on how to deal with it! We thought we would be together till old age.

Being alone is not being lonely, but being WITHOUT that special person, losing your connection, facing each day and night knowing that he is not there by your side and will not ever be again is a most devastating human condition. It IS losing a vital part of yourself.
Take courage and miss it, and know that it is very normal.
glors

Well, this posting surely reveals that we all feel the same about being without our loves. It will never get better. We have to just learn how to live on alone until our number gets called up.

That's exactly what I found.....no matter who or how many are around..I am missing Norm............
hugs.Lori

I understand how you feel. Today is a month since my Charlie passed and you are right IT Sucks big time. I miss him so much. I feel so alone also. Is like part of me is gone. I feel empty. I have my kids but we all miss him so much. I also miss the laughs, even the fights. He was such a good man, caring and loving. He wasn't perfect but no one is. I want him here with me. I feel is so unfair that he got sick and die so young. We were supposed to get old together.
Hugs to you.
So sorry for your loss.

I remember the feeling well. No matter if I was totally alone, or had tons of people around me I still felt alone because I was missing Denny so much. If I was at home...I felt like I should "go" somewhere, if I went somewhere I felt like I should "be" at home. There was no place of comfort for a very very very long time. It was like I was in the twilight zone and it was totally unbearable! My heart ached so bad and no one or nothing could help. I numbly walked around with his pajamas on wrapped in the blanket that he gave me and cried oceans.

I am here now to say that you can survive the unsurvivable. I did! One breath, one baby step, one day at a time...by being kind to yourself and accepting that all of what you are going through is normal considering the huge loss that you are living through.

I remember it was years before I could think of anything beyond the "day" that I was in. To think beyond that was just too painful knowing that Denny would not be there.

I am over 3 years now. You are coming to the right place coming here. It helped me so much to know that what I was going through, (even though I felt like it was killing me and I would not survive), was normal.

Please give yourself hugs from me.
-Diana