I lost my husband one day before you did: 2/20/15. Friday nights will never be the same for me, and I'm sure Saturdays are horrible for you. So sorry for your loss.
I'm working really hard to move forward, and keep going, but still my heart feels heavy at times, and tears come, mainly at night when I'm missing him the most.
But today my tires needed air. I never had to put air in them because Marc always took care of it for me. He'd just say, "Your tires are a little low-- i'm going to put some air in them." And off he'd go.
So today I asked a neighbor guy to show me how to do it. I started crying when I said I didn't know how, because Marc always did it. The young neighbor was so sweet. He just came in my car with me, and we went to the gas station, and he showed me what do do.
I'm finding that we have to reach out to people and ask for what we need and want...

It's tough, I know. I lost my husband in 2008, I am deaf, he was hearing. So I depended on him a great deal. I am now alone, even the neighbors appear to avoid me because of my deafness, even tho I am an excellent lipreader. I don;t know where to turn. It is just too depressing to think about, I am hoping that someone HERE will feel something in common with me. I am completely capable, except that I cannot hear!

Tigersocks, you are not crazy! People who are crazy don't know it.(my opinion). You are grieving. My husband passed 11 weeks ago today. Have I done some crazy things? You bet I have. I took the remote control for the tv to the gas station with me to get gas? I put a load of laundry in and realize I forgot to put the clothes in! I can't remember often what day of the week it is! I drive somewhere and go right past where I wanted to go. Or I turn the wrong direction. I could probably name more things, but even at times simple tasks that I could do without thinking evade me. I am hopeful that this too shall pass. If not they can put me in a padded room. I told my oldest son I wouldn't be able to go here or eat there because these were places we or he frequented. My son said: "mom if you are going to avoid ever going to the places you and dad ate you are going to lose a lot of weight."lol. I can finally go to the grocery store during daylight hours. but there are many places I still can't drive by. The hospital for one. Hang in there, the people here get you! Hugs, Michele

Whoops, guess I should have said "nuts" instead of crazy. same difference though. Hugs, Michele

Hi Sorry for your loss. You are definately not going nuts - I'm sure this is all normal for all of us. My darling husband died on March 17th this year. I cry every day. I have ordered 500 photos from the past year, made photo displays, have keyrings, a photo in my purse, in my bag. I have backed up my photos and video clips on my pc, cds and external hard drive, I wear his watch and nearly had a panic today when I mislaid it - cried and cried when I found it. Many other things that would seem nuts, but are to us part of this journey that we are on.

Thank you so much! Today July 11 is supposed to be the day we go on vacation to Yellow Stone. He planned this trip a year ahead. He was so excited and I was too. I still can't believe this is happening to me! I can see him in my mind with his clothes that he love to wear and I can his hands. My mind is playing tricks on me. I don't want to offend anyone but I do believe that his spirit lives and when I speak to him he heard but only he can speak to me physically but then he will give me signs like seeing cardinals since we used to sit on our porch and watch the birds, one time this bird landed on me and thought wow my husband lives but spirit. I just say I LOVE YOU HON! makes me feel comforted. I do ask GOD to give my husband the power to help me in my daily undertakings. I feel comforted that way even if I cry everyday. Don't give me wrong everyone has their own belief. Tell me about yours...

Hi, I am sorry for your loss. I know your pain. I lost my husband Oct 2014, 9 months ago. I cry everyday. I to talk to him and believe he helps me when I ask for his help. I think he guides me in certain instances. One day the TV's all stopped working. I know nothing about FIOS we have that runs them all. I said to him "Brownie I need your help. How do I fix this" I went down in the basement as I knew the FIOS box was down there and I saw immediately it had a reset button on it. I never knew it existed. I pushed it and wow all the TV's came back on. I have Brownie's ashes and when I came back upstairs I walked over to his ashes and kissed my hand and touched his Urn and said Thank you and I love you. I talk to him all the time. I feel him with me. People may say it's wishful thinking I don't care what they say. They may think I'm crazy. I don't care. I know what I know and he has helped me many times in the last 9 months. I just hope he continues to. I miss him so much and love him so much. I don't know if I will ever get passed this agony. There is no other word to describe it. I wish you well and pray you find happiness. I had happiness for 35 years. Oh how I miss him. Linda

I used to sleep wrapped up in Cliff's old bathrobe because it still smelled like him and I could pretend it was him wrapping his arms around me. I still talk to him, even after all these years. Nutty? Maybe, but we do what we have to do.

I am sorry for your loss, but glad you found the rest of us.

Love and Hugs,
Martha

Every day is a struggle...lost My Bill a little over a year and 1/2 ago.... took my grandson to the American Museum of Natural History today... all started by taking the train down to Manhattan and all I could think about was the 3 of us just "watching the choo-choo's" 2 years ago and imagining the trip down there...Prayers for you

Tiger, I do EXACTLY the same as you. My Barbara who went to a better place on March 14th., was cremated and I keep her urn with her ashes surrounded by our photographs. (See my avatar). I also keep a small portion of the ashes in a phial attached to my key ring which of course carries my car keys. I know she is with me all the time now. I cannot bear being to our familiar places, as I think "last time I was here she was with me....". When I get home I sit in front of her urn and tell her what I have seen and where i have been. I also always still say "Goodnight darling" and "Good morning darling" as we did before she made that final journey. Our beloveds may have passed on but I am certain that they can still look after us.

Nothing will ever be the same......nothing.

Food shopping; filling the car with gas; getting the car serviced; catching a spider; taking out the trash; making the morning coffee; repairing stuff; listening when I'm hurt; holding my hand; a shoulder to just lean on; snuggling; fixing the cable box; kissing my neck; soothing my hurt feelings and on and on.

There is a BIG, BLACK HOLE where he used to be!

Roz

No, you're not crazy - you just loved and still love your husband very very much...

So sorry for your loss. I also carry pictures of my husband in my purse. I am at 16 months and my husband will always have a piece of my heart. Yes, very difficult to go to places that we went together. I don't go to the supermarket where we went food shopping, or the gym we worked out at, haven't sat our in our yard area. I do go to a support group and that helps. Take baby steps... Much peace to you.