Dear Zoey's mom,
I do not know whose fault this is, but I do know whose fault it isn't - and that us /you! I am an angel baby mom and I would have given my body to be burnt on a stake in a heartbeat, if that was what was needed to have my little girl born safe and sound.
Oh, but I am right there with you in the ache, and emptiness. I miss Sinza so so much, it hurts.

There's so many " What if's" ...." I should have's" it's so so hard. All i know is that it's not your fault or any of ours. We're mother's...no one loves our babies like us or would have done ANYTHING for them. I often also think that i could have done more but we have to accept that sometimes its just bad luck. How many babies for example have had their cord wrapped around them several times and they make it. SO MANY! My baby had her cord wrapped around the feet...! Such a strange/stupid accident but that it's what it is an ACCIDENT. As in, not your fault or your bodies. The last step in the grieving process is acceptance.....give yourself times to get there, take your time but have it as a goal. I'm always praying for all of us in this group. May we all have peace in our hearts, God Bless.

My water broke 2 days before we were going to find out the gender. I had just hit the 20 week mark. They said I has lost all of my amniotic fluid, but if i could keep my baby inside me for three more weeks, he had a higher chance of survival. Three days later the cord fell out and they couldn't find a heartbeat, so they induced my labor and on April 10th I gave birth to my baby boy Jackson Keith. I still struggle with blaming myself for not being able to protect him. It's hard but im making baby steps towards acceptance.

I understand so completely how you feel. After losing Malaysia May in February I refused to look at my stomach or touch it for weeks. I didn't want to forget what it looked like with her in it. I wanted to keep the vision of her being with me for as long as possible. When my husband would touch my stomach it made me cringe. My husband actually got comfort from touching my stomach because he said "it was May May's home." I also had the same "What IF's," I thought if my daughter had just come a few days earlier she would be alive. I did not find out that she had died until I was in labor.

Hello RoxyD, My name is is Martha. I feel your pain. I lost my baby this past May 29,2014. My baby was supposed to be born June 26 2014, two days before his daddy's birthday. I feel HORRIBLE, empty and feel like I am going crazy. My little baby boy "Eli" was my first baby, we were extremely excited waiting for his arrival. I was going to have my 2nd baby shower on May 31st. I was exactly 36 weeks when God decided to take Eli with Him. I WISH WITH ALL MY HEART THIS WAS A NIGHTMARE, and unfortunately is a reality. My days go by in slow motion I miss my baby boy so bad. It's a horrible pain. Sometimes I feel like screaming out loud. I feel lost, empty.

Dear RoxyD,
It is hard what you are going through right now. I have been feeling the same as you. I still expect my bump to be in the way, and then I realize that is not there anymore. I was 35 weeks when God decided to take my little Elias. He was suppose to be due on May 5 and he passed away March 39. He was my first baby and I was so excited to have my baby boy in my arms. I had a perfect pregnancy until I stopped feeling him. I feel the same... empty and lost. I feel nobody understands me not even my husband. I feel that I need my Elias more every day. I will pray for you and know that you are not alone in this pain. God is with us and He knows what He is doing. Our babies are angels and they are in Gods arms. May God give you strength .

Hi, I am joining this group as I watch my 10 year old have a great day. I lost my first child to stillbirth. Not a day goes by when I see two sisters that are friends of my daughter play that are close in age that I do not think of my little angel and what it would be like to have her here..big sister. So, so sorry for your loss. I hope you can find peace and cry. I did for many months. It is NOT your fault. Hurt doesn't go away but it does move to a space in your heart where it is okay to breathe and live. I found out on Mother's Day after my loss that I was pregnant. Breathe, cry, and so, so , so sorry for your loss.