Hello, i joined here cause i am looking at being a single mom,
does anyone regret it? how do you deal with the fathers? and the families of the fathers for years to come? these are just things i am looking at.
i miscarried my first baby in april, we were heartbroken and had been exited about the baby, WE wanted another one, so we let it happen.
or so i thought we wanted another one, now he says my emergencies and expenses have taken too much a toll on him.... and he no longer wants me part of his life or in the house.... im pregnat, and i have been SICK.
ive been looking for work but i needed to get to the doctor first.... and foremost. i am pregnat again so soon after a miscarriage. and cant even hardly keep water down... ive lost 30 pounds since ive been pregnat....
he is more worried about money. money is not that tight. rent is paid, and bills are paid on time, sure, its tight, but he still has money to go to movies and work on his car.... but he wont even get me a hashbrown from mcdonalds... he says he has had enough. why would he leave me now??
its not cause he is scared... he is suddenly an ass, and my perfect relationship, or so i thought, has turned abusive and derrogatory...
last night i was upset, and of course im hormonal, i followed him out the door, and he backed into me with his car, knowing i was standing there.
he has raised his hand to me, and said harsh words that rip my heart out.
i dont know what to do. he didnt want me to work, he wanted me to recover from the miscarriage and look for a different type of job other than what i was doing..... so he leaves me, high and dry and no leg to stand on...
How did some of you get through this? get through the hurt?
survive the pregnancy with nowhere to go?
can you still have a life after this? do i really have to deal with him for the next 20 years? have to deal when he finally decides he wants a life and gets a family and my child is left in the dust??
im so hurt and lost.....