Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I\'ve been in therapy now for over two years, and my life has it improved in so many ways but I still struggle with self injury and suicidal thoughts. In fact my last suicide attempt was Aug 3rd and I am VERY lucky to be alive let alone with brain damage or major organ failure. I constantly feel so tired of this being my reality, having these memories in my head. My sister was my perpatrator, it happened to her and she taught me the same \"game\". I went one way with it (Post Traumatic Stress) and she went another (Borderline Personality). This has made family interactions with her ther very hard to stand. Its just so constant, its has its roots in every part of my life! Its effects everything! Even though its gotten better its almost gotten worse! Even if that did make sense... Does it ever get easier?
In regards to your sister and BPD, I hope that she is in therapy too. If she\'s not, she really needs to be. Remember, that her issues are hers, not yours. You have to TAKE CARE OF YOU. Stay in therapy and never give up. Even when you are feeling better or you reach a \"plateau\" in therapy, just don\'t stop. I believe that this is the only true \"medicine\" for getting things back on track.
In regards to the self injury-well, I see it as a coping mechanism. Everyone has them. Some are different than others. Most self injurers are NOT trying to commit suicide. A suicide attempt is totally different. SI is not the best coping mechanism and can definitely be dangerous. It also leaves nastly little scars and is really disturbing to the ones who love us. I don\'t condone it, but I also will be 100% honest and say that if it is done safely and it helps, than sometimes it is just gonna happen. I know I walk a thin line on this issue and I won\'t go into it in full in this community, as there is a self injury community for that. I guess in regards to SI, I just would say, don\'t let that be something you take on guilt for.
In regards to suicide: This is, as I am sure everyone has heard at least once, a permanent solution to a temporary problem. (I guess that is part of where my opionion on SI comes into play) We all know that suicide seems the only \"answer\" sometimes, we just have to ignore the temptation and focus on what IS working.
I have learned so much and have gained so much support from this site. It is THERAPY in itself, so keep posting and reading and \"talking\" to us.
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