Jadie Lynn, I'm so sorry you feel this way. I can understand your despair, and I think many of us here can understand it. When you haven't been loved by your own family, when they used you like a toy or abused you instead of recognizing and showing you that you are precious just for existing as you, it's so hard to understand what value you have. Even now, I have days when I feel like I'm just garbage.

But I know I'm not garbage, and I know you have value too. You have a heart that can love, and that is not only the most valuable part of a human, it's much more than your parents seem to have had.

Please keep going to therapy - you have so much to discover. You will discover that you are a vast and unique creature, fascinating and lovable just for being you. It is a painful process, and I am very sorry you have to go through it. But there are great rewards in store for you. Your life is going to be worth sticking around for, I'm sure of it.

oh Jadie lynn-You have great value and there is a reason and a purpose for you. I know you're feeling pretty low and dirty right now but there is a light at the end of this horrible ugly place you're in right now. Believe me. Just keep on with therapy and writing all your feelings. Writing has helped me alot. I'm so sorry you were taken advantage of by an adult who twisted love around for you. You deserve better. It's a process to learn how to love properly and how to feel loved because I never got that either. (((Sending healing hugs))).

Also I don't think I would have come as far if it wasn't for Jesus pulling me out of the dark tunnel I was in.

Oh sweet one, I'm sorry I haven't written you in a week, I've been sick, and now I feel even worse... Please, you are so valuable! I know what your going through, maybe not exactly, but I do understand. I think most of us on here know and understand... probably a lot more than you think.
I know it's hard not to feel like no one loves you, sadly most of us if not all of us feel this... We all know, we all have been there...
Please, don't do anything to hurt yourself...
I know I'm not alone when I say
" I would miss talking to you!!!" I really do enjoy talking to you! You understand, and you listen!!
We are the same way, we understand, and we listen!!
Please oh please, don't hurt yourself!! Please don't!
I'm begging you!!

Great big huggz!!!

I felt an immense amount of love and loyalty towards my stepdad, it was very confusing. It is drilled into is that we should love our parents, that they are deserving of unconditional love no matter what. I'm beginning to see that is not the case. In the parent/child relationship, to my mind, it is the child that deserves unconditional love, after all they didn't ask to be born or choose to be here, but a mother or father chooses to have a child. A parent has to earn the trust and respect of their child, and I think that is true of love to an extent too.

I know what it is like to feel worthless, indeed, I still do. My family have all turned from me, making me believe myself to
Be dispensable, disposable. After all, if I WAS worth anything, they wouldn't want to get rid of me. My husband at times only sees me as what I can do for him (in my view, I am probably being unkind to him) the only people I am worth anything to are my children. Without them, I know I wouldn't be here.

You will find something, or someone (I include you yourself in this) that will keep you going. Even if it is just the child within you that needs your love now. Sorry if this is a little disjointed, it's 6am here and I'be slept badly! Big safe hugs.

big hugs to you JadieLynn. it's a very confusing time, I'm sorry you have to go through this, it's very confusing. just know you are stronger and more capable than you will ever know.
here is a great quote by Tolkien,
All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.

Thank you. You are all so very kind to me. It is a little confusing for me. For people to know those horrible things about me and my family and still say nice things.

We say these things cause what we are saying is true. Sadly what most of us have believed are the lies we've been told.
We are saying true things... You really are worth it, you are valuable!! You really are! We all are!
I struggle with the lies... everyday I deal with them. I'm always surprised about who or what folks say that they believe about me ( which is the same stuff we tell you )

You really are worth our time, please never think otherwise!!

You, my suffering one, are so worth beyond any measurable value and are priceless in God's eyes and those who love you. I am so sorry and apologize for how there are deep hurts in life. But life is worth it and you are worthy to have life, happiness and healing. Give yourself this permission. Our end is far better than our beginnings. Pain can be turned into strength and a very useful catalyst in time. Just because you are makes you priceless. Value of life is not in the measurement of output. You are a source of love to someone somewhere. Let us all pray for you. It takes a lot of courage to share our stories. You are to be greatly commended as your story is healing others as it goes worth.

Correction - >forth< not worth