Hey all, I'm new to this site and this group but I'm really grateful to have a place where I don't feel out of place for once. Basically my mom and my dad were never married so my whole life I had to go back and forth between their houses. A week at my dad's, and a week at my mom's. My dad, who was a musician, was abusive. He was manipulative, hit me, refused to feed me, didn't let me bathe, gave me no privacy, and verbally abused me constantly. I was a very sexualised child, and I've been told by my mom that I said, wrote, and drew things that a child shouldn't know about. I always knew something was off ever since I was little but I had begun dissociating so frequently that I couldn't recall what it was that I sensed was wrong. Luckily the mental and physical abuse was enough to get the family court to move me in full time with my mom when I was 12, but by then it was too late. The summer that I moved out I began having flashbacks. I slowly began to realise I had been sexually abused as well. I had nightmares constantly and was always afraid of everything. At first I figured out that my father had raped and molested me since I was a small child, but over the course of that year I remembered being assaulted by numerous people. Mostly men backstage at my dad's concerts, my dad's friends, and my stepmother. As the years went on my PTSD got worse and I took it out on myself. I developed an eating disorder, I began self harming, and I had developed Dissociative Identity Disorder as a result of the abuse. Two years ago, my mom's husband moved us to Singapore for his work and for once in my life I'm far away from my father. I've always been afraid of men and never felt like I identified as a girl. This year I came out as transgender (FTM) and I was finally able to feel safe dating another guy. I've recovered from my eating disorder but my DID is still bad and I still self harm. I came on this site hoping to find some people with similar backgrounds or at least people who are comfortable talking about this sort of thing. HMU if you want to connect, I would love to make some new friends who might get it a little more than the average Joe. 
Thanks for reading!

-R