So this week me and my (ex) boyfriend was going to a public in a store because he told me he had to use it. (No one was around, it was in the hallway in front of the bathroom and the place was pretty empty because it was at night. And all day he has been messing around and joking about sex,) but anyway he kinda just kissed me and we made out with is normal but then he started grabbing between my crotch and I told him that hurt. He stopped but then he put his hand down my pants and started rubbing me. I told him again that it hurts and he just kept going and said imagine it feels good. After he said that h took my hand and put it on his dick and started making my hand rub it. I pull my hand back and told him to stop that he was hurting me. And he did. But he kept trying to make me put my hand down his pants. But I wouldn't do it and got him off topic of it. But then he pulled up my shirt and looked at my boobs and started grabbing them, it tried to put my shirt down but he kept pulling it back up, which made me feel uncomfortable. But I ripped it back down. And he still kept on with the hand job until he gave up and got upset with me then went to the bathroom and told me that he was going to go finish what you started. Then we just left the store but he kept trying to convince me to send him nudes and such. I broke up with him the next day and I felt nasty and embarrassed with myself for the next few days.
So idk if it is sexual abuse because I feel like I didn't stop it in time and so it is my fault. Also idk if its because I'm a virgin and inexperienced with sexual stuff.