Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group
Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.
Well I tried it, I tried not checking in and it wasn't the right thing to do.
So if you're wondering if checking in is the right thing or not, I am here to tell you it is the right thing to do.
I stopped checking in for about a week, deleted my account, thought the sexual addiction was no big deal, and really got sideways.
I returned to my inner circle behavior, but now am happy to say I have more info on who I am and who I thought I was.
I am a compulsive sex addict, I am a compulsive masturbator who can become delusional when not doing the right thing. I do not have the willpower to not do these behaviors and if they continue they will lead to misery, harm, and dysfunction. There is a higher power who rewards me for not acting out, and that reward is better than anything material or society given, it is a reward of clarity and spirituality. If I decide to be guided by this higher power I experience dreams and a life I could never have imagined on my own.
I have character defects like a desire to control everything, an attitude of entitlement, selfishness, and feelings of superiority mixed with inferiority that make for bad business and harm my fellow man and woman. I also generate emotions such as jealousy, envy, hate, anger, fear, make my self lonely from self-pity, and think in terms of grandiose rationale.
Each and every time I function in these character defects I make life worse for myself and others.
I need humility in order to honestly ask God to remove these defects of character so I can treat him and his children better.
I then am given the power after asking for the humility an the help to do better, and I then use my newly acquired healthy willpower to do the right thing as much as possible if not always.
I then stay on guard and watch out for the return of my character defects if God hasn't seen fit to remove them quickly, and I pray and meditate to receive his will for me and others so I can help as much as possible.
I then pass along the message that life is not a dead end and there is hope and we can recover.
It's nice to be back.
Hope you all have a great day.
So if you're wondering if checking in is the right thing or not, I am here to tell you it is the right thing to do.
I stopped checking in for about a week, deleted my account, thought the sexual addiction was no big deal, and really got sideways.
I returned to my inner circle behavior, but now am happy to say I have more info on who I am and who I thought I was.
I am a compulsive sex addict, I am a compulsive masturbator who can become delusional when not doing the right thing. I do not have the willpower to not do these behaviors and if they continue they will lead to misery, harm, and dysfunction. There is a higher power who rewards me for not acting out, and that reward is better than anything material or society given, it is a reward of clarity and spirituality. If I decide to be guided by this higher power I experience dreams and a life I could never have imagined on my own.
I have character defects like a desire to control everything, an attitude of entitlement, selfishness, and feelings of superiority mixed with inferiority that make for bad business and harm my fellow man and woman. I also generate emotions such as jealousy, envy, hate, anger, fear, make my self lonely from self-pity, and think in terms of grandiose rationale.
Each and every time I function in these character defects I make life worse for myself and others.
I need humility in order to honestly ask God to remove these defects of character so I can treat him and his children better.
I then am given the power after asking for the humility an the help to do better, and I then use my newly acquired healthy willpower to do the right thing as much as possible if not always.
I then stay on guard and watch out for the return of my character defects if God hasn't seen fit to remove them quickly, and I pray and meditate to receive his will for me and others so I can help as much as possible.
I then pass along the message that life is not a dead end and there is hope and we can recover.
It's nice to be back.
Hope you all have a great day.
Not much to say today, I realize the dangerous parameters my sexual addiction contains.
I recognize the liability my sexual addiction contains and I am willing and open to grow away from it.
Have a great day.
My Creator, I am willing that You should have all of me, good and bad. I pray that You now remove from me every single defect of character which stands in the way of my usefulness to You and to my fellows. Grant me strength, as I go out from here, to do Your bidding, Amen.
I was able to ask God to remove some envy I acquired from porn watching today, I mean the envy removed today, not the porn watching.
It felt good to know I love something so much I envy others being with it, but it also felt good to not have the envy eating away at me anymore. If I didn't watch the porn, I wouldn't have acquired the envy.
I wish it weren't true, but it is.
Have a great day.
I have to be unselfish when it comes to considering women. As far as porn, I have been watching it, and I have been seeing it in a different light. I actually just see a production of fantasy where people are fully aware of what they are doing and choose to do so. I think the big difference is I am watching it with the attitude that I love women and not with the attitude that I want to kill some pain.
I'm not sure I want to stop watching porn, I think that is the biggest reason why I can't stop. I am single, terrible in completely relating to women, and really want what is best for them. Seeing them perform makes me feel free and happy. The addictive component is still the compulsion though, and this could be a problem with married women, or women who can't afford to entertain sex lives in a particular period of their lives. I can see how I could assume with my looks that most women are mine for the taking, and this is a bad assumption, because it is not true.
All this work and paying attention to my sexual addictions, is really paying off. I have learned one thing though, if God wants me to eliminate a boundary no matter how hard I try it will be eliminated. For instance if God wants me to be the new man of a woman already with a man, it is going to happen, the guy is going to resent me, but I'd rather piss off another man than piss off God. Pissing off God is not very wise, trust me.
I used to think it was unselfish of me to not be open to a woman leaving the person she is with to come be with me, thinking of how I wouldn't want that to happen to me as a man, but if God wants it, it is going to happen, unless I am given decision making power, however that is not the important thing, the important thing is I can only let God dictate that, I cannot let my sexual addiction dictate a women leaving her mate.
If I act as a sex addict I could harm a happy home without God's blessing, as if harm is God's blessing in the first place, so I am just grateful I am aware of this, some dudes think it is their right to take any woman they please, that is pure pride, and pride spurs vengeance, and after vengeance comes God's justice, not always on vengeance's side.
Today I want to be unselfish, nice, and kind to women.
Checking in to nobody giving a fuck again.
LOL!
Have a great day.
There are actually 2 Checking Threads that were hijacked by the same individual. Truly inexcusable.
But hopefully others will use it for a constructive purpose.
Hugs,
Wolf (5 and 1/2 years sober)