please take note of my personal experience here, if you cut your wrists because that si what you see yourself oing but havent, then once you do cut your wrists it 100%isnt going to get rid of the urges to SI, t'l just mean your brain comes up with another image to haunt you with, another place to cut, another form to use, until you have nowhere left that isnt hurt. It is not a process that goes away - you will have those scars forever. cutting your wists to get rid of the image isnt going to work, sire it might get rid of THAT image behind your eyes, but your brain will just replace it with something more, perhaps even worse. so please dont do this.

As for butterflies and bubbles, you can see these behind you eyes. Close your eys now and make yourself think of childlike excitement at blowing irridescent bubbles and watching them float harmlessly, and then move your thoughts to the most beautifu butterfly you can immagine, and watch it flitter around amongst the most beautiful flowers you can imagine,and then imagine you are there, and happy for once and relaxed.

Live the moment for a few minutes.

Yes, it doe only last a few short minutes, and yes, it does take practice, but you can do it. i know you can. i never usd to think i could.

Youcan see bubles and butterflies and other wonderfl things.

I hope this helped.
M

i see all of my scars just bleeding everywhere...then when i open my eyes i can actually see and feel the blood running...i think im the insane one. you're just in pain.itll be ok :)

i see people jumping off of buildings. ppl shooting themselves. hanging themselves. i see the worst in everything. such little things as just walking. its amazing how many massive injuries you can get out of such little things. im so tired of seeing this. nd im rly glad you posted this. cuz it made me feel less insane.

I see what I now allow myself to see, better. As, I did not want to lose this control of my mind. Pain would not own & control.

I now am better to maintain & control. I see, what I want to see. It feels good. My best to you.

not when i close my eyes, but when i shower and clean my arm with soap, rubbing my shower poof along the inside of my arm reminds me of cutting and i do it again and again, more and more roughly until i imagine ripping them apart.

i stopped cutting there because i'm more scared of getting discovered than i am of destroying myself, so i've started being much more careful.

i see my body wrecked and covered in scars that are becoming more and more visible to everyone around me. i see them staring.

i see blood a deep cuts all over,
i see flashbacks to things i thought i didn't remember

Nah.. recently, when i close my eyes, i try to block these scars and blood.

I try to see a house instead, a warm house with a wide garden.

It don't always succeed but at least i tried and it do help, i somehow feel.. warm inside.

I hope all of you will also try to see positive things ^_^

I see slashing my own neck because I want to kill other people but am not allowed to..wow Im crazy..lol