I am so amazed by the 6 years and i understand that it isn't the part that you're focused on right now. I'm sorry that you cut last week. and I'm sorry that you felt cornered and I don't know what happened...but thank you for sharing and being real.

keep going. You are strong. You are not alone in this.

It really is a struggle just to make it through each and every day without SI. I have been cut free for just about 5 years now, and I still struggle with it every day! The best words of wisdom I got from a friend was ... "Don't think about the relapse, think about how long you went without!" Try to stay positive and strong. Thanks for sharing!

PurpLeDragOn
thanks for saying that

i felt i was the only one who thinks about this
and not acting on it

feels so strange after years to keep facing this as a thought

ok i knowits not as long as u but i have done 9 months now without it and as u do i think of it eveyday i fight daily to not relapse it is the hardest thing ever but u got to keep motivated keep at it and see if u can beat that record now!

i feel this is not our fault
.its a situation that pushes to this
some people its drugs some people its drink

its just when there seems to be no way out any more
and it all collapes in

everything becomes inside
and it feels like the outside can never understand so why explain
and its all here

inside this is all i am
and it hurts
and i cant see the way any more
and in some crazy way in this crazy world this might fix it

petefin
that is a good gap

it feels like putting miles behind you
leaving that way of thinking
when i stopped i had hurt myself alot
and i said no more

i have hurt enough
why am i hurting myself as well
it has to stop
i would not let someone else do this to them self
give myself that same respect and forgiveness
stop hurtting