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Schizophrenia is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception of reality and by significant social dysfunction. Untreated schizophrenia is typically characterized by demonstrating disorganized thinking and experiencing delusions or auditory hallucinations.

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when the disease makes you want to die

flyorra
flyorra
this disease has made me suicidal, i have gotten over that, i am more waiting for euthanasia, which i guess the government would not grant me. i want to die because i know who the demon was that put his sperm in mother and he has a son, i call his son, my abuser, because i was abused by him since the day i was born, and i was captive when i almost died from being with him for 2 years, i almost died, the hospital reports that i would run away for weeks??? i mean where did i go? i have no idea because the demon made it up. the hospital also reports, that i was abusive towards my abuser? i mean nothing makes me more furious, hello? he would destroy all my possessions, and not let me leave my room, etc etc etc. you don't know what i have been through. why am i paranoid you aks, because a demon sperm was given to my mother and i was conceived from a demon. why do i want to die? lol lol lol
deleted_user
deleted_user
Sounds like time to call the doctor! :) Also, sad about what you've been through RE abuse ---maybe a doctor to talk to about that as well? Take care!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
OMG First of all I am so sorry that all that abuse happened. You have been so abused to the point that most people probably cannot relate. That is how bad it sounds. Please if you haven't already seek out a councelor to talk to. You need to get all that crap your carrying around out and gone and build a good life for yourself. I have not been abused but I know what it feels like to always want to die. If I were given the choice by God to die right now or live to 100 with no pain or struggle I still would choose now. I dont know why I have this death wish. But I can see how you would. Please get some help talking things out. Best of luck and come back as often as you need to and let us know if you start therapy please????
arfie
arfie
Flyorra, I have enough faith in the spiritual realm to believe you. My faith in the spiritual realm is sufficient to take it a step further and believe that where you have demons, you also have angels attempting to reach and heal the souls tortured by those demons.

Is that demon rejoicing in your captivity?
Defy it! The only power it has over the physical world is the power you give it. Leave that room. NOW!

Your angels cannot help you until you do. My favorite angels all have human names. Reach out. They are waiting for your call.
flyorra
flyorra
i have done cognitive therapy and talked about my abusive past, how many times do i have to do it? you know, the night i wrote this i took twice my dosage of meds because i was so upset but then i realised the next day why i don't take a high dose the side effects are too bad. i know medication can help me mentally but the side effects of seroquel is weight gain and i copped alot of slack from people when i was on it and gained too much weight and sleep too much, it was a nightmare. i am just going to have to stick to my low dose of amisulpride. i am be such a terror, horrible bitch mentally. this is a disease, a real illness.
stevebhopes
stevebhopes
No matter what you genuinely feel the truth is that you have gone through extreme trauma and it has sent you over the edge. You have PTSD in addition to your primary diagnosis in my opinion. There is great hope and many advances in the therapeutic aspect of PTSD treatment. I have been though a lot of trauma myself and I can recognize a fellow sufferer. You are not bad my friend. You are more valuable and amazing than you know. Hugs.
strength1979
strength1979
HI. Find something that makes you feel good. That is what i do. I've dealth with this for awhile,15yrs. I to have faith that what your saying is relevant somehow in what is going on in the spiritual world. Just don't let yourself go over the edge. I've seen it happen to people. The spritual is real but so is the physical. Keep a firm grip on both. Meds help.
deleted_user
deleted_user
even if all what you believe so strongly was real .... what then.... all good advice here... you have to go forward... we all here struggle at various degrees in life ... let the past go and it wont keep haunting you daily... i know that sounds easy...and its not... but it is only part of the answer for you ... you are stronger than you think... nothing in life seems fair... but really we can only do the best we can with who we are...

make us your friends and share with us and we will try our best to be here for you .... okay... together we can make a difference in today...
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