Sorry to hear that braincandy. Can someone else cover your family obligations. If not I guess you need to way up is your mental state more important or is your families. Your paranoid delusional thinking and hallucinations are probably not going to help with your family obligations. I hope the clozaril increase helps mate. Thinking of ya.

Do you have proper support from friends and/or family? Someone you trust to take over for a while? Because you need to put your mental health first in this case. I admire your selflessness but you really can't afford to let your condition get any worse than it already is. I hope you manage to resolve this soon. All the best.

I am sorry things aren't gong well. I hope things turn around for you soon. You sound really level headed when you write about this - that is encouraging. I hope you can find some way to cover your family obligations and get the help you need.
Peace to you,

Mark

I think if you are on here looking for support, you probably know you should get help at this point. What do you feel? Do you feel like you are being paranoid, do you think you are delusional? Maybe your doctor is right, either way, I wish you the best of luck, I am glad you are at least taking medication, seeking help. I hope you have a good support system at home, maybe family or friends who can let you or your doctor know if your symptoms are getting out of hand. I'm a psych nurse, so I generally don't see patients until it's too late and they are brought in against their will, but I pray you will find your happy medium with the dose increase.

Dont feel like if this med doesnt work you dont have options. That would make me feel trapped. The worst place to be is caught in your own head. Try different combos, different dosages. The possibilities are numerous if you think of it that way. Mabey try what im on which works for me...its...celexa 4omg, seroquel 4oo mg, risperadol 2mg ...somtimes vistiril works.....klonopin definetely works for anxiety and keeps my head clear.....i used to hate changing meds around becuase its like they reorganize your personality a little bit sometimes. Keep trying though. Some times you experience a little bit of an improvement with different meds and it is encouraging. Sometimes i fellt like my energy was going through the roof, somtimes i felt more endorphins pumping, so i felt better...sometimes i could sleep better which turned my whole mood and well being around for the better. Thats the stuff that kept me going in the process of trying to find the right meds, combos, dosages...just those little pick me ups gave me glimmers of hope that something could help. I know ive felt hopless before. Just dont let yourself become trapped to the point where you dont think theres a way out....thats more of a mental thing...and has also been easier said then done for me at times.....Feel good, be happy..and have a great day man.....