OY! I think I had better get a therapist-psychiatrist....I am watching a Swedish crime TV series and I'm getting thoughts that I should kill some people or kill myself. I don't know exactly what to do at the moment, but I think I can handle tonight and tomorrow look for a psychiatrist. I have been too long without one, the last being very abusive, so I need to talk to someone and i"m talking to you guys and gals....and I have a "date" tomorrow evening at Grand Central Station for coffee...I think my voices are scared of losing control because I am doing better. This will be my first, just about, date in what might be 15 years.....I think my voices are frieghtened of losing control...I'll contact my insurance as soon as possible..right now or as soon as they take calls. I've had terrible voices before and can just ignore them but these friighten me.. I willl keep you all posted...pray or keep me in your thoughts...send me support vibration through the supreme cyber network of the heavens (an entity another patient and i invented to support one another across the Atlantic. Cool, huh?) Thanks for listening. MaxH