Glad you found us. Yes I have read about childhood, accidents, rape, train drivers after someone jumps in front of their train, the 9/11 people who survived and the teams who helped. Many things can trigger it, and depending on why, as to what can trigger a flashback etc. Not easy for those who love them to live with, often not the person they were anymore. And never, ever, their fault.

HELLO, WE ALL NEED SUPPORT NO MATTER HOW SPOUSE OR LOVED ONE GOT PTSD. WE STILL HAVE TO DEAL WITH HOW WE FEEL WHEN WE SEE THEM GOING THROUGH IT. MY HUSBAND IS USING THIS MACHINE CALLED ALPHA STIMMS. IT'S SUPPOSED TO HELP PAIN, DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, AND INSOMNIA. HE JUST STARTED USING IT THIS WEEK. THE DOCTORS ARE HOPING HE CAN GET SOME RELIEF FROM HIS BACK PAIN BUT IT CAN HELP RELIEVE SOME OF HIS OTHER SYMPTOMS TOO. I'LL KEEP YOU POSTED HOW HE DOES. HE ALSO WEARS THESE CLIPS ON HIS EARS. THIS HELPS STIMULATE THE BRAIN. THERE'S NO SIDE EFFECTS AND HAVING THE MACHINE AT HOME HELPS SO I CAN HOOK HIM UP ANYTIME. AND FOR ANY AMOUNT OF TIME. LIKE I SAID I'LL KEEP YOU POSTED. THIS MAY NOT ELIVIATE EVERYTHING BUT IF HE CAN GET A LITTLE RELIEF FROM HIS PROBLEMS IT WILL BE A RELEF TO HIM. BECAUSE OF HIM BEING ON BLOOD THINNERS HE CAN'T HAVE NERVE BLOCKS. THEY WORK FOR SO LONG BUT THEN THEY WEAR OFF AND HAVE TO GO FOR MORE. OUR SON HAD THEM DONE AND SAID THEY DO WORK BUT HAS THEM EVERY SO MANY MONTHS.
I HOPE THINGS WORK GOOD FOR THIS GROUP SO WE CAN GET SUPPORT FROM EACH OTHER. HUGS, CHRIS

Seriously,
I had thought so much about this. I remember in 2004, I had suggested to my mom not to send for her old records from when she was a kid (she is now in her 70s). It seems like Pandora's box had been opened when my oldest brother decided to discuss with mom about her childhood past. She never really wanted to discuss it because of the memories from that time. She would only discuss certain things. In 2010, another one of my brother's (this one is from California), decided to come out to visit us. He had brought his daughter and her three kids. There is something that happened, that had caused my mom to go through pstd (it triggered off an event from mom's childhood). Now this brother wants to come out here to visit again but I'm not ready for his visit (not to say I am a bitch or nothing), I have serious concerns if he was to visit. One of the concerns is will he make mom sick again with his being a responsible person? (he does not like me very well because I would not let him come two feet near me. He is depending on mom to talk me into letting him come around but mom will say she don't want to get involved). I really wish I had my old friend to call and talk to like before, I mean I really need to talk with someone. I feel like a constipated turkey, holding in all of this junk and can't get it out. I really miss the home life we used to have here, it was ridiculous at how we lost it. (I won't go into details because I don't want take up too much time). Because of the pstd, mom is going through a bad depression and anxiety. Everything seem to bother her a lot and she was not like this before. It is not anything else but stress and low self esteem.....

I'm feeling real down and depressed. I hate that the doctors really fucked our lives up. I'm so angry. I don't mean to keep talking about the same thing but when it is thrown in your face all the time, it makes you think about it a lot. I'm tired of hearing the same thing about how doctors are, MOVING, saying negative things about a relative but they are called, and so much. I feel that I'm being traumatized because of how our life got this way. There is too many negative things going on in my mind. I'm sick and tired of others being the ones who control if we are happy or not in our home. I'm.......just tired. I won't share what is really going on in my mind. I don't have no one to talk to. I feel like a damn bomb that ready to explode.....in these last 4 months, life has been like a living hell. I hear conversations that hurts so bad.........it's time!

Chris,
Have you heard anyone say that post traumatic stress can cause pain in the back? That is what it seems like here at home. It seems like when the loved ones are very upset, there is nothing you can do to help them. Their brain is still hurting from yester years. You are right the ones who love them very much need some type of support: having someone to talk to, or something. I'm dealing with NOT having anyone to talk with but I constantly see emotional pain from the individual. It hurts when the person physically hurt from the emotional pain.

I read your post again and here is my second reply. I know what you are talking about when you say living with someone who has pstd. It's not fun and regardless of what time of year it is, that person is not happy. The sad thing is since 2010 when that doctor told my mom different negative things, the Christmas here at home had been a living hell. Like right now.

Annie,
Yes, one of my Grandfathers stormed Anzio beach Italy, And captured by the Germens in 1942

My other Grandfather fought in Iwa Gima Uncles, Fought in Vietnam......cousins were in the marine corp for a bit.

I come from a long line of military.


Me, I'm here for a child-hood Trama from 3.5yr's ago.
I met this family when I was 5 And their son had Down syndrome And didn't have a little brother, (he had a sister though) When he met me, I think those Big Brother instinct's kicked in, And thought I should like the same thing as him, He had to know how to do stuff, But, I couldn't, He had to show me, And got very angry at me if he saw me doing something he couldn't and manipulated me into giving him something, And started shameing and taunting me when he got it (all this started happening when I was like 15-16)

So, that's my Trama.