I am so nervous that my stomach is rolling around. I've starting vomiting over all of my household problems I'm trying very hard to be strong but things have really gotten me down.

My DNL started using drugs again. I caught her in the early stages of her relapse. (I think) She may have been using and managed to hide it from me. Any way I got her back in a hospital and upon her release I refused for her to come home. I said she no longer could live in my home. We were not going to enable anything anymore and are taking charge of our lives and home.

Now that this is done it essentially put my son out also. The are now pretty much on the street. I did get a phone call that they are stayng in hotels until they can find and apartment. I know they don't have money for any apartment either so I don't know what they are doing.

Some times I feel as though the worry such as I have now is worse han having them live with me and going through all he drug problems. I just cannot hold up under the worry of if hey are even able to eat. I do believe my son is working every day or nearly so that is positive.

How can I keep myself together. I am crumbling and when I get this way I go to bed at night hoping I don't wake up. The pain I feel is overwhelming. I've had so many heartaches in my life I just can't stand any of it anymore. What can I do to pull myself up when I am sinking like this?